Yesterday went to my local drop in centre when it opened at 10.00 and stayed till it closed at 3.30. Had had no sleep because my head was in such a bad place.

Not long after i get back there's a hard knock on front door.I ignore it because i just can't be ****** to answer it but keeps knocking so i reluctantly answer.
Man from council on door telling me the two floors below me have got flooding.
So i go into my bathroom to find bathroom sink full to brim and floor soaked.
I'd forgot to make sure bathroom sink tap tigh tly switched off and combo of slow drip of tap and slow for water to go down sink meant that place had flooded.


Not a good day .Then my mother phones minutes after man has left from fixing sink and wants me to do her online grocery shop. My head head is in f****ville
but i know she will go into one SO with my head full of ANXIETY and paranoia cos of the flooding etc and wanting baically to crash out i'm taking down this long shopping list.

The thought of xmas is depressing the hell out o f me .Choice between staying at home or going to my mother's to spend xmas day with her and my brother.
My brother often goes to her place for xmas period and it invariably ends up with major fallout either on xmas day or day or too before.
Things are not looking promising on that front because he's already stressed to the max running around after her while she gives out her orders from the bedroom and nags him to pieces.
Alternative is to stay home and have a 'drink myself into oblivion xmas'.
On Monday i'll be going round to her's cos brothers got to ort out stuff urgently at his place.Whether i feel up to it doesn't come into the equation as
my mother will only take it out on him when he gets back if he goes up to London and there's no one to dance attendance.