I'm currently on alprazolam (xanax) and when I've explained to some people I know that I'm on it, they get very excited and ask me how to get it. They look at it as a sort of a 'party' to be on and I just sit there like 'do you not understand that what I go through is terrible and this is the only thing that helps me? and you think it's for fun?'


it bothers me. Last night I was talking to a group of my friends and I said 'i hate being on xanax, I don't like the way it makes me feel for the 20ish mins it's working" and this one girl turns to me with a shocked look and was like " How can you not like it? I wish I could understand that!" as in genuinely shocked.

Another girl I know, I was explaining to her why it wouldn't be a good idea for me to move out right now because of my panic attacks and she asked if I took anything for them and I told her and she goes "WOAHWOAHWOAH You have xanax for panic attacks?! howd you get them?!" and i was like my psychatrist...and shes like "wait so you just went in to his office, sai dyou had panic attacks and he gave you xanax?!" all excited like and I was like well theres more to it then that but she didnt hear me she was so excited that to her xanax seemed to be easily obtainable


I dont understand, I try my hardest not to need it and these people are enjoying it?? it makes me feel awkward and uncomfortable.

:/ does anyone have any advice or anything on this?