WARNING: This post is ungodly long. If you don't wanna wade through the whole thing, the condensed version is: Can MS cause seizures that have weird symptoms such as dissociation, deja-vu, the feeling of something being new(unfamiliar) but knowing it isn't, and being completely void of emotion? For a short period of time, of course.

Feel free to call me looney, but I have a semi-embarrassing question to ask. I ask here because I'm currently in the MS limbo. I'm trying to figure out if this is MS-related or not.

I've had MS-like symptoms for the past 4 years or so, with a steady, severe increase in symptoms over the past year. But one thing is particularly disturbing to me....weird dissociative episodes. They can last as short as 3 minutes, or as long as half an hour (with it coming on, having maybe 5 minutes or so of leveled dissociative-ness, and the rest of the time with it waning quickly). I've had some instances where it was instead a very, very sudden emotion that was come and gone in seconds. For instance, I was driving in my car singing along to happy music, feeling great - then suddenly, I let out a sob as my breath caught in my chest due to a sudden and OVERWHELMING feeling of grief. It lasted not but a second. And I was absolutely BEWILDERED and confused.

The whole thing scared me enough to ask my psychiatrist (who I see for ADHD) for an anti-depressant. I didn't tell her about the dissociative thing (didnt wanna make her think I was crazy), but I had kinda mild depression-like symptoms (repetitive thoughts, mainly) and the celexa helped a lot with the former. But the dissociative things have increased in frequency. They're weird and scary. And sudden. Out of the blue, I feel absolutely numb. I feel no emotion and don't feel attached to the world. I feel like my body is not mine. Everything I see seems not real, farther away (it LOOKS farther away and feels different), and very unfamiliar but yet deja-vu like. I feel floaty, or like my stomach and head are floating up. My body goes cold and numb - I barely feel pain or anything touching me. Talking to anyone is like dredging water from a well - it's hard to bring words up. And I do not care about anyone or myself. I'm attached to nothing. I don't feel real or alive. It's like it's a dream.

Obviously this is very scary once I come out of it. I'm scared of what I will do because of the lack of attachment to the world. It happens randomly with no triggering event.

I happened to recently stumble upon info about simple/complex partial seizures...and I know that MS can cause seizures. Oh, and also that Celexa can reduce a person's seizure threshold. So my question is....can MS cause some kind of seizure that causes this kinda stuff? Or am I just off my freakin' rocker? I'm kinda scared and pretty embarrassed about it. I really don't want anyone to think I'm a nutter!