The big girl hospital called to remind me of my appointment.

I told them that I am not just a bad IV stick, I am a horrible stick. My fav nurse (harry) no longer works in that department. He is in the ER, and Thursday is his day off. This means being stuck over and over till they either get a line, or I get a neck stick. OMG you cant believe how much that hurts. I have offered up my foot several times. I burned out my veins with chemo and breast cancer.

I reminded them how much trouble with anxiety I had last time, and while I survived the ride, I was clawing at myself on the inside by the time it was done, and since I am now mid flare, I am having MASSIVE anxiety attacks. I dont think I can get away with pills this run. I was given a lecture on how tight the schedule is, and how that switching me from oral to IV meds would require a nurse be with me. I may have to reschedule.

After a talk to explain that not only do I have MS, but a glioma, and a flare, and have been forced to wait greater than 2 weeks for this particular scanner by the MS center, I felt it was unfair to bump me because I am anxious. She put me on hold, and came back in a min. She has placed me one on one with a nurse, who will have a syringe full of the hard stuff and wont leave me. I thought that was awfully nice, but why did I have to play the brain tumor card to get it?

So, its a day of distraction. Im so nervous!

Who else gets really bad anxiety when flaring? what tricks can you pass on. The DH is being a good boy, and just staying out of my way. I hate this stupid disease!

This sucks.

The wrong people get stuck with this disease. I hope someone is going to take you to dinner after and buy you something nice.

((huggs))

Awwww Dej, I have 2 scheduled for tomorrow too. Shame you don't live closer we could use the buddy system. I bring my own music, and an eye mask, it seems to help. It amazes me they don't do open MRIs for people with anxiety.

Good luck tomorrow. We will be sending good vibes your way.

Im going today Dej. I have a couple of valium to take but am worried it
is not enough. Mine is only lumbar so I think I dont go all the way in. But
at this point I can think of nothing else and my anxiety is thru the roof. They
should have given me meds for the two days before.

I will be thinking of you. Best of luck

I am upping my xanax today! I think its the flare that has really ramped up my anxiety. I just cant seem to get a handle on it.

They dont have music in this machine, like the one I wanted. I do have an eye mask that is a black out mask. If I forget it, i have them cover my eyes BEFORE they show me the cage.

I agree, they need to start giving you anxiety meds the day before! I just took a walk, and we talked to some neighbors with a new doggie. The nut job down the street, got a new air horn! He is out on April 1. I have a DVR full of goodies to watch. I have movies, and games to play....I just cant seem to get calm.

Why do I let this bug me so much? Its not hard work. its not dangerous (altho I was IN the machine when the power went out once) and its not painful. I just have to LAY DOWN! thats it. That is the only job requirement. I can work as a nurse in a prison, but I cant lay down on an MRI table? how stupid is this?!


I think I will try some yoga.

Take a deep breath and good wishes and good luck to you.

Can they do the side of the wrist near the hand? I had a nurse do that in the ER once (I was impressed.) Try not to worry too much.

I don't have the severe anxiety that you experience, sweetie, but I do get a ramping up while in the tube.
When I feel the waves of anxiety coming, I begin to count my breaths up to 10. If the anxiety makes me forget what number I'm on, I have to start over. It's a mind trick a spritual teacher taught us to get out of the jabbering mind and into a peaceful state.
If that doesn't work, I start praying like crazy...and it helps...I know I'm not alone with it, at least.
But just don't put that thing over my face until my eyes are closed!! I don't wanna see nothin'!

Take care of yourself, dear. And no caffeine that morning...

Awww, Dej, I hope your experience is much better than what you are afraid it might be.

Saying a lil prayer for you, my dear.

That's not crazy. YOu are probably like me, prior to MS there was never time to lay still, we had too much to do. I had a strict motto "There's plenty of time for sleep after I am dead"

I can't stand them without music, even horrible music is better than the sounds of the machine. Foregot my CD last week, had to use one of theirs. It only had 3 songs on it.... for my 2 hour MRI. Never again!