[Dejibo]

The big girl hospital called to remind me of my appointment.

I told them that I am not just a bad IV stick, I am a horrible stick. My fav nurse (harry) no longer works in that department. He is in the ER, and Thursday is his day off. This means being stuck over and over till they either get a line, or I get a neck stick. OMG you cant believe how much that hurts. I have offered up my foot several times. I burned out my veins with chemo and breast cancer.

I reminded them how much trouble with anxiety I had last time, and while I survived the ride, I was clawing at myself on the inside by the time it was done, and since I am now mid flare, I am having MASSIVE anxiety attacks. I dont think I can get away with pills this run. I was given a lecture on how tight the schedule is, and how that switching me from oral to IV meds would require a nurse be with me. I may have to reschedule.

After a talk to explain that not only do I have MS, but a glioma, and a flare, and have been forced to wait greater than 2 weeks for this particular scanner by the MS center, I felt it was unfair to bump me because I am anxious. She put me on hold, and came back in a min. She has placed me one on one with a nurse, who will have a syringe full of the hard stuff and wont leave me. I thought that was awfully nice, but why did I have to play the brain tumor card to get it?

So, its a day of distraction. Im so nervous!

Who else gets really bad anxiety when flaring? what tricks can you pass on. The DH is being a good boy, and just staying out of my way. I hate this stupid disease!