I feel like I've been drafted into the MS army and I can't get out of the 6 mile hike, crawling in the mud, having cluster bombs go off around me, etc.
It seems to get overwhelming at times...then I go through periods that make me wonder if I really even have MS...

My DH is so sad that I flinch when he touches me...it feels as if the hairs are being moved the wrong way. I used to love to be caressed; makes me sad the things I no longer enjoy due to this stupid disease.

Just take it easy, Dej...your MIL won't mind if things aren't perfectly clean and the food isn't homemade...enjoy visiting. It's more important, don't you think? She'll love ya either way...

Oh, yeah...when you go out to a restaurant, put a small bit of a cotton ball in each ear...it'll muffle the sounds a bit and make it less overwhelming. as for the lights, don't have any suggestions for that, except to wear tinted glasses...

had a good cry yesterday. upset DH to no end, but I couldnt help it. I was too exhausted. The final computer I have to fix isnt behaving, and I am simply thinking of turning it over to some professional and paying to have it fixed for the old gentleman who really needs it. I dont charge him for my work, but I am stuck, and cant make it go. I have one last remedy to try and then im packing it off to someone else.

when MIL is here I WILL do nothing, but enjoy her company. We will laugh, giggle, watch italian movies, eat, cook, and sight see on days I feel like it. I wont have any work hanging on me.

Im just so freaky tired. I feel like I ran marathons all week and on my day off I have to do laundry, and cooking, and prep the whole place. its exhausting to just think about stuff, let alone have to do it.

I too feel like I got drafted and cant keep up.

(((((((Dej))))))

Well the old mans computer has reached the point that I am going to pay someone else to fix it for me. it had such a bad virus that it destroyed so much of his machine, and I had to wipe it clean, but the problem is that the virus ate so much that the machine no longer realizes it has a DVD/CD player, so it wont read the information from the DVD to reinstall the windows onto the machine. I have cried, and struggled, and gone blind trying to make this old man's computer better, but its just beyond what I can do, and thats saying alot. I called a pro in the big city who is a friend of a friend. I will end up having to pay to fix this machine, but the old man who owns it simply cant. His son is in Japan and they use this machine to stay in touch, so he is antsy to get it back.

I have realized I am not the girl I used to be. once upon a time I would have arm wrestled this thing into submission, but now, its worth it for me to pay for this repair so I can get it off my plate. I dont want any work on my table while MIL is here, and its become too stressful.

Thanks for letting me whine. Its so rare that I break into tears. I have had enough.

Dej

I hope you have a relaxing, stress-free visit with your MIL. From what you've said about her she sounds like a delightful lady and someone who'd be a gem to hang around with. I hope you and she both have a great visit.

This is where I am right now . . . but the tears aren't helping.

I'm right there with you too, Dej and lefthanded and I'm left handed too!