Thank you, thank you, thank you.....I couldn't have put that better myself! I loved reading that - it just about sums me up through and through. I don't want to bore people with all the strange details (and take the risk that they wouldn't believe me anyway), but I am so tired of apologising for myself and my 'performance'.

We can't win - one of my colleagues told me that I work too hard at putting on a brave face, and I should let people help me when I am having a bad day, but as I said to her 'I would just bring everyone else down if I do that - it would get old very fast, especially if no-one else can see a problem.'

So, I would respectfully ask for a place in your MS Utopia!

Lyn