I have paid all day for that walk. I am pooped! I spent my spoons way too early! I had to go to errands, bank, chiropractor, cat food shopping, people food shopping, fix lunch, get ready for dinner at the neighbors house. Take my comcast cable box that was broken to customer service and exchange it for a dead box, spend 1 hour on the phone with customer service trying to make it right, only to find out they cant come till tomorrow night...IM POOPED!

Is there such a thing as a cry baby Marine? :o

I just got back from a 45 minute Bowen therapy session . . . and I feel like I was on that PT hike with you! It will be months before I can entertain that kind of activity . . . . :eek:

Thank God its rainy today! I got to sleep in, and the car needed to be at the shop at 8am, so the DH had to be gone ealy. OUCHIE! Im walking like I have rocks in my shoes, and that I slept on boulders. I did sleep good, but wow! I have a feeling I can do a small walk today, but it wont be a 3 mile monster! Whats wrong with him? I ate ice cream last night. We went out to dinner with friends, and I had greek chicken with the skin on! I completely blew my food budget, but I did it without thinking, just dove in! im gonna pay for that, but oh well.

dont tell sarge that I am back in bed for a morning nap. hoorah!

No pain, no gain.

OMG! :eek: it stopped raining, and DH appears..."you ready?!" Im stunned like a deer in the head lights. He says "bah, come on, we will only walk half the street. At least you will get in some exercise. its a 1/4 mile if we just go slow in one direction." well...stupid me believes him! Get all bug sprayed up, and ready. Off we go, slow walking, as time marches forward he picks up the pace a tiny bit at a time. Before you know it we are really walking, not just shuffling. As we passed our 1/4 mile mark he said "hey! look over here, what is this?!" and stupid me fell for it. I walk to where he is and its a dead animal laying in a pool of rainwater mixed with pollen. Really gross. The trouble is that in order to get close enough to see it I had to cut thru the woods to go around a huge pollen rain puddle and as I start to turn back he screamed out "WAIT! look at that?!" well, I go blind in the heat, and exercise so I have to take his word for it. "what?!" scream back. "oh! its a snake, he said. its big, but I dont THINK its poisonous!

Im on to him, but cant take the chance. He said Just up ahead is a cut thru for the woods, and we can get back to the house. Sure enough, we get to where he said we should be and someone has parked their RV in the lane and has it set up as a camp sight. (he walked this path at 6, he KNEW this!) so we walk on. Three more cut offs turn out to be no good. I said "just keep walking! lets get this over with!" we walked all the way around and again hit that 3 mile mark! I was blind, sweaty, unhappy, red faced, and over heated, but done. I am in the house in front of the AC sipping on ice water. I think I am going ot lay down for a bit.

Mr. Cheerleader in there is all "i knew you could do it! Im so proud of you! hang in there!" I asked what would had happened if I collapsed or couldnt do another step? He said he had a walkie talkie with the neighbor and they would have driven to come get us. ARGH! Im in the MArines!

I think I would have to speak up and say "enough!". It's great that he wants to help you exercise but going and going to the point of blindness and exhaustion isn't doing anyone any good. Why doesn't he just get you a treadmill? That way you could exercise in the comfort of your home and the AC. Plus, you don't get eaten up by bugs or have to use that nasty bug repellant.

Early in the morning I have a Bunny Breakfast Bar in my backyard. At least one rabbit
shows up to eat my grass and weeds. At dusk, it's the Bunny Supper Bar.

I'm walking more than I was, after getting off the Interferon. I am not used to walking this much, so I lose my balance quite a bit but have not fallen.

New Mexico, here, has so much smoke from the AZ fires that I won't be walking a lot for a while.

I use natural bug repellant, and I guess after speaking to him, he admitted that he and my MS MD had a chat, and the MS MD told him while going blind is scary and can be upsetting, the exercise will do me good. Then he pointed out how many MS patients run, jog, walk, do marathons, and so forth. Since I used to be a gymsnast and was in amazing shape pre MS, the MD and my DH have conspired to see if they can push me a bit.

MD thinks that anxiety is a huge component that keeps me chained to the house, and said I have almost NO endurance, and really need to get up. Was willing to put me on ADs if needed, but felt that once I got up and saw what I can do, that I will be encouraged to do more. To NOT stop for fuzzy vision, just be aware of it. For DH to watch where he leads me, no holes in the road...anyway DH and MD are thinking that I could be marathon material again. Since I was in the past, I can be in the future, and wont know until I push myself a bit.

Im torn about this. Now I was in amazing shape, and could run circles around half the town, and it gave me a sense of peace to be out there, and in good shape. It kills me that my body is getting soft, and I am winded peeling an orange. I have always prided myself on being in great shape, and that is one of the things I am mad at myself about. So...im torn. is this a good idea? or a bad idea? will this only teach me how much I have to give up? or will this teach me that I dont have to lose a thing unless I want to? Do I have what it takes? or will I be the girl in the corner saying I want my ice cream now please.

I dunno. part of me is thinking I should try this. Whats the worst that could happen? I could end up with MS? I could end up riding the couch? im already doing that! perhaps I can do more than I have told myself I can. Perhaps I wont regain my eyesight, but perhaps I can regain some independance. I would like to do more than flip channels on the TV for now. Im a young woman, I want to act 10 years younger than my age, not my own age.

Am I kidding myself? or should I try this?

Exercise is great......but it's HOT out and exercising outside would not be an option for me. A treadmill indoors would work (for me) just fine. I'm just not going to do something I know will exacerbate my symptoms and make me miserable just because someone thinks I can. There are alternatives to almost everything.

And while I think it's sweet that DH wants you to be the "pre-MS Dej" I also think that he needs to be realistic and realize that you might not be able to do everything you used to do. Because of MS or because of age or whatever. I'm sure he's not in the same shape he was 25 years ago, either. Marine or not. ;)

well Dej... I think you should keep it up. I know it's hot, I know it's hard and what you have been doing hasn't been working...

Insanity: doing the same thing expecting different results...

I believe you will benefit from this if you and your out of shape body can get past the initial shock of it all.
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