i had one of the scariest nights of my life last night. i have my medical maryjane card and after a bad experience with a pot brownie, i held off for about 2 months trying anything. well, last night i decided to try a hash oil capsule i had acquired last month. i took it about 1130pm, and for the next few hours all was ok. i was messing around on my pc, and next thing i knew it was 4am and my arm was hurting me, which led me to pop an oxycodone. about an hour later i was going crazy, could not control my arms and legs, they were flailing about madly as i was lying on my bed. my mind was racing, i was unable to think clearly, at one point i thought i had had a stroke, and may never recover, i was in "agony" at this time, it was like all my neurons in my arms and legs were firing and the pain was incredible. i still feel it in my knees 18 hours later.

when i thought i may have had a stroke, i thought "i cannot live like this" and remembered my gun that i had in my chest of drawers. my mind seemed to tell me that i needed to get it and shoot myself in the head, i was trying to resist the urge, i was visualizing the action and trying to find some way out of it. i remember thinking, this is how people end up killing themselves, their mind takes over and they cannot resist it. finally, after what seemd like a logn time, i got up and sort of locked myself in the bathroom and sat down until the thought finally went away. i returned to my bedroom, laid back down and the flailing subsided a little and eventually i fell asleep. when i woke 4 hours later i felt essentially normal, but physically beat. i am not messing with mmj again, i guess i just can't handle it.

it was very scary feeling like i was not in control, and i feel like i nearly did not make it out alive from that experience. i put things together when i was speaking to my best friend this afternoon, that everything had been fine until i took that oxycodone. so, the mmj did not help with the pain and seemed to trip me out in a horrible way...

p.s. i know i sound crazy, but no voices in my head or anythign now...

Oh my (((((((((((((((clarkstar)))))))))))))) ... I'm glad to hear that things have calmed down. What a scary experience you've described, and you're absolutely right to be careful while taking or mixing medications.

I'd be curious about what exactly that hash oil capsule contained... I've had some very frightening experiences with marijuana/hash oil etc ... they're often 'cut' with other ingredients, and not only the plant or extract itself (even if they claim to be!).

In any event, yes be careful, and I'm so relieved to read that you got through the experience okay The gun etc.... so scary.

I don't know about you clarkstar... but I hate being out of control of my mind.

I've had my share of complete freak outs after smoking. I've been the one wanting it to 'end'... not visualizing my death as acutely as you describe, but definitely wishing my life were over to get rid of the 'stone' I was feeling.

Absolutely bone chilling.

This is going to sound really dumb......but I've never used medical MJ before. How do you really know you're getting pure MJ and not something that's been cut with something else? Do you have to purchase it from a specific source or pharmacy? I'd be very afraid to use something I got from someone I don't know. Even then....where did they get it? Are you taking a chance every time you use it? Not judging....just curious.

OMG how scary! ((hugs))

i got the hash capsules from a girl i met playing cards. 2 other people that night took them then but they were hard core potheads. i will ask them if they had any ill effects. one guy took 2 within 15 minutes of each other! this girl said she actually made them herself, she had brought edibles as well. but honestly there could have been anything in the caps i dunno.not the wisest move by me.

i have been trying to get off the oxycodone via mmj but it's just not going to work i guess. i'm done with the mmj...

right now there's no dispensaries in AZ (legally) so those with cards, can;t legally acquire it. its a mess of red tape. you make some very valid points kitty, i don't always use the best judgement

NJ is the same way. its legal, but there is no legal place to get it.

Please be careful, Clarkstar. There's some sick people out there who get their jollies by hurting others. Short of growing it yourself I guess there's really no way to be 100% sure that what you're getting is pure. Maybe I'm overly cautious but that's a chance I wouldn't be willing to take.

(((((Clarkster))))) So glad you made it through that bad time. I would deffinately say that MMJ is not for you....or at least not from a so called friend!!

For some people the "paranoia" side effect of marijuana can be overwhelming. And some strains can produce a more "trippy" high than others. And then there is the fact that some people are nearly immune to marijuana effects while others can not tolerate it at all. I would suggest not trying it a third time.

That said, purchasing a basically illegal substance from a stranger is never a very good idea . . . which is why the battle rages over making it accessible to patients. In most patient co-ops you have patients growing it for other patients, which is considerably less risky. I would never get it from someone who could not identify the source or grower.

p.s. Marijuana is a "mood enhancer." that means if you are happy when you use it, you may feel happier. If you are depressed, it can deepen the feelings of depression. This is good to know if you use it medically, as there may be times when you wish to forgo using it at all because of the risk of intensifying an undesirable underlying mood.