Its one of the questions that I always get asked as part of my evaluation in the big girl neuro clinic. Do you feel that people have been more critical of you this month? Do you feel that you have been more critical of people this month? Do you feel that you are liked? Do you feel like people are talking about you in a negative way? Do you feel like you have friends?

I always thought those questions were wild and out of place till the last flare I went thru. I felt like folks were being hyper critical of me. I felt like they didnt trust me or believe me when I said things. I felt like I had to work harder to explain myself.

Since the flare subsided, its been much less but I still have snippets of distrust or feeling distrusted. Stupid things that make no sense, and have no connection to history, but yet...there it is. I feel like people are judging me. This is silly, because I am not a girl who normally cares or is flattened by what others think. Everyone is entitled to their opinion and while I may not always agree with you, it doesnt mean we cant be friends, or talk it over.

This has truly been different for me. Does anyone else have periods in their disease where they feel like others are judging them? just dont like them? Wish they would just go away? Like one message board I was at, I posted a nice thread that had some questions and NOT ONE person responded (its not a thank you place) it just sat. Now I know that probably folks didnt have an answer. They didnt know me since I was new there, and they were probably waiting on someone more knowledgeable to speak up, but after a full week. I deleted my post, and went away. I saw everyone chatting it up in posts all around mine, but not one stopped to say hello, welcome, cant help you but...

Why does this happen? I am not used to it, and dont want to wear it. How do you get over it? or am I the only one?

As MS can cause swings in affect, it can produce paranoia and some find and have posted a feeling of fear of burglars, hearings sounds along with smell sand taste changes, etc. Brain stuff stimulation can produce cognitive damages too as is well explored. Sometimes I forget I forget and try to be cognitively aware of some things. I taught NI (Neurologically Impaired) kids (now I am, how ironic)along with PI (Perceptually Impaired, LD (Learning Disabled) and a bunch of other letter kids for years and compensating (as well as awareness) of lost skills was often a goal.

What kicker said makes a lot of sense.

Plus I have learned over the years that (as incredible as this sounds) not everybody likes me.

I like you B2Y,

Me too, even if you both don't like me..

Seriously though, I never have that feeling. I mean I know if someone doesn't like me but, what is my stand by saying?.."I just don't shiv a git"

I like you too B2Y and sally will always be tops in my book. Even if I do irritate her sometimes.

I have never been a girl that was wounded by what others thought about me, or even cared what their opinion is. As long as I know I am right with God, being Fair and considerate, I move on. its just that since that last huge flare, I feel like folks are judging me. Staring at me (i was blind with a cane, and wandering the streets, they probably had good reason to stare) and yet...it bothered me. I felt like I stood out. I dont like standing out.

I know I am being overly sensitive, and I know its an MS thing, but I was hoping that I wasnt alone, or others would tell it theirs went away...

Sal,
Stop being paranoid. You know I love you!!!! And your git too.

They forget to tell me I had to enter the popularity contest! So I don`t care!

LOL, I make sure to let people I don`t like know to stay away!

People who don't like me can kiss my foot. I don't take anyone's crap and pretty much speak my mind. I'm very opinionated and pretty much a loner. People sometimes mistake my quietness for meekness. But say or do the wrong thing to me and I'll let you see the sleeping giant that you have awoken. MS may have slowed me down a little bit but it hasn't killed my spirit.

Don't worry about what people think. It's very easy for people to make judgements and assumptions when they are on the outside looking in. As long as you can look yourself in the mirror and sleep at night, who cares what others think.

You had me all the way to the end of your post, Mocha....until the look in the mirror thingy. If I want to sleep well at night, I try not to see what I really look like in the mirror..