Yes, it is both sad, heart breaking and frustrating as well.

I have found that when these emotions and thoughts take hold, that it helps to remember a couple of things:
1. "I" am not my body, just as I do not have a disease...the body does.
2. If I didn't do all the things that I do to help the body stay as healthy as it possibly can, that the situation would likely be much worse.

Thus, after doing all that I should as you say, I can rest in the relative emotional-mental comfort that some things are beyond my control but their effects can be mitigated to some degree through intelligence and wisdom.

I wish you peace of mind that despite all the symptoms of this disease that play out in the body, that "YOU" can not be made better; for 'YOU" are already perfect, have always been and will always be that...just as you should be.

With love, Erika