Sooooo.....I had my usual 6 month MRI, and consultation this week - and it appears that everything is stable. Same collection of lesions in both brain and spine. No new evidence on scan - dozens of old players, but nothing new and active.

SO WHY DO I FEEL LIKE I AM GETTING WORSE???? Yes, we had an incredibly hot summer, and I was sick for most of it, but still, after nearly 12 years, I am starting to think I may be succumbing to the dreaded 'hypochondria'. I have tingling, numbness and mobility problems that I never had before - I am finding my mind more vague and easily overcome, my body less accommodating and my energy levels non-existent.

I feel like such a fraud. Getting ready to start Ampyra and see if that helps, but I just don't understand this - surely, if I am really getting worse, there would be concrete evidence????

Perhaps I am talking myself into it - who knows? Embarrassing at the Neuro's office though.

All of my "evidence" is the same, but I'm gradually getting worse. No "new" symptoms, but if I look back six months or a year, I can see how much better I was then. I think I'm probably Secondary Progressive, but my neurologist hasn't spoken those words.

The last time I had a true exacerbation was maybe five or six years ago. The same symptoms just wax and wane. When talking with my non-MS friends and family, I do sometimes call them "flare-ups" because people relate to that term, but they haven't been flares per se.

I don't think it's hypochondria. I do think we tend to be hyper-sensitive to whatever's going on in our bodies, though. Don't you?

I agree with B2Y...we seem hyperaware of our bodies, because it is usually telling us a lot more than healthy people's bodies, don't you think?
I'm feeling the same as both of you...these little things creep in, yet the neuro doesn't seem bothered by it, because I am strong...leg reflexes are strong, etc. but the weird things that crop up, like my foot dragging more, a new tremor in my dominant hand, all of these things didn't seem to bother him. It's a matter of controlling the symptoms in my case, I guess.

Don't feel bad, Ann...we are the only ones who truly know what it feels like to be in our bodies. Just jot things down with dates, and get on with living, I guess. Docs can only do so much...and as much as I love my neuro, I think neuros are the whackiest bunch of docs around

I know what you're feeling Lyn.. Haven't been back
to my Neuro in 5 or so years, and I've been on LDN
for 10 years, but, I have progressed.

Not so much in MS symptoms, but in AGE!!!
Aging with MS is not pretty. So maybe your
progression is in age, making your MS feel worse?
You're still young, but age still creeps in somehow..

It is my inderstanding that as we move on from RRMS to SPMS or for those with PPMS there are often not notable differences picked up on MRI.

It makes me sad that anyone with this miserable disease for 12 years would feel like they might be a hypochondriac. This is not your imagination.

While I get the value of having a positive attitude I really think that many times on these message boards it is cruel to those who are suffering from this chronic, progressive disease. "There but for the grace of God....."

I can only add to what the others posters have said.

Nothing really new just a decline in the old sx's. The damaged nerves may be dying and that is what is leading to a decline.

CCSVI succeeded in eliminating a couple of sx's but the existing lesions are and will forever be diminishing my quality of life.

Good luck on trying a new drug. I hope it works for you.

I thought psychiatrists were the whackiest, but am interested in hearing why neuros are.

my neuro is very compassionate, caring, listens, but is very eccentric. Super smart, but talks a mile a minute, about whatever pops into his brain...and on the phone he is horrible.
My previous neuro was great to talk to, but not a good listener, and charged patients for calling for a refill prescription over the phone!! he was abrupt with my MIL who has Alzheimers, asking her when she thought FIL was going to die (his patient also who had Parkinsons). What doc in his right mind would ask a poor elderly sick woman a thing like that?
Just weird..