So things haven't been going so great... I am now a divorced, 44 year old woman, living with her parents, got fired from my job on April 5th and my MS has been really acting up. I have gone from walking pretty good, to needing to use a cane most days and also had to get a mini scooter for the days I do not have the energy to do anything. I went in to see my Neurologist last week because of spasticity in my legs and hands. I am now taking Baclofen, Provigil and my Dr. in considering Ampyra. I have an MRI on Wednesday morning to see if I am in a flare or if my symptoms are because of degeneration. I have never been so depressed in my life. I feel helpless in looking for a job, because I don't even know what I can physically do anymore? My insurance is cut off on April 30th unless I pay $674 a month for cobra...which I have to do, but I have not received any unemployment benefits yet so I don't even know if I will get enough to pay for my current bills. I feel like I am stuck in a hole and not sure if I can climb out...this is all just a bit too much for me to deal with, especially now that I am alone. I have been 'dating' someone for some time now, however his drinking is taking over and I know that I cannot continue on with him...but I am so lonely that I find myself running to him even though I know its not good for me.

I just needed to vent...I'm feeling sorry for myself and don't know where to turn.