Oh dear! I just teared up reading your post. I am so sorry you have to now go through this. You have been through so much over the past few years (well, at least the years I have "known" you.). I am glad you are being proactive about this. I think a hysterectomy is a good idea and a direction I would take if I were in your situation. You sound as if you have done your research and know the risks and benefits. The experience and knowledge you gained while your mom was ill is also helpful and beneficial in deciding what course you want to take. Of note, my sister just had a total hysterectomy. She has done well and so far has not needed any HRT, which she can't take anyhow due to the breast cancer she had. Please keep us posted on how you are doing and what you decide to do. I will keep you in my prayers.