Hello everyone..

I finally found a neurologist.. I wish so much I had the one I saw back in May.. but since he left the country I was stuck with the neuro at the health clinic.. yeah the clinic that I always have issues with..

This neuro is a retired neurologist that is still working. He's prolly 70-80 years old. I was optimistic about the appt. but that quickly changed when I met him.

I told him that I was there to discuss the results of my MRI and EEG that were performed in June..

He wasn't interested in that, but more interested in "I really want you to take a few different drugs to help your brain chemical balance" and also to lower my "adrenaline levels".

I stopped him and said that was not a concern at this time and also no part of the reason for the visit.
I knew with him saying that within the first 90 seconds that this appt was going to go a different route than I had planned.


I didn't even get to discuss my symptoms. I pulled out my symptom log and he told me that that shouldnt be necessary.

He told me it was impossible to have my right leg feel heavy and numb.

He said all the things I am experiencing are in my head.
None of the things I say are happening are really happening.
That I am immature and need to act like an adult as "you are 25".

It seemed to me that he was very upset that I have educated myself on this disease and on things that could be making my quality of life better and easier.

I explained how the electrical vibrating shock that I have had for quite some time, is still happening, but now its like someones taking a torch to the entire right side of my body.

He also said that was impossible and made up.

He forced drug therapy on me for over an hour so i finally said fine Ill take Copaxone.

I am not okay with that.
I am not okay with how I was treated.

Oh yeah.. my primary care physician (at the same clinic) bailed on me supposedly he was not with the clinic anymore.

awkward moment.. while i was in the room with the new quack doc looking at my mri images.. primary care physician walks in and sees me and about crapped his pants.. he just turned and left abruptly.

I dont understand how nor why i was treated the way i was yesterday. I am not okay with it.

I am considering sending a letter but feel that will only be worse.

I totally should have brought my boyfriend with me. Or even his mom who has witnessed me struggle everyday.

I am scared.. Genuinely scared for my health and future.

This man says cluster lesions aren't a real thing (although I have been told by two different neuros that I had cluster lesions on the left side which was impairing my ability to walk) and that I just read problems with ms online and just say I am experiencing them.

It was like a horrible dream I couldn't wake up from I felt cornered. and like everyone there was against me.

I don't even know what to do. I don't ever EVER wanna go back