Erin - Sorry to hear about the UTI. I hope you feel better soon.

Today's whine . . .I don't whine or complain about having MS. I try to just go with the flow and have just gotten used to having MS. I don't usually get mad about it, but have my moments. Today, I'm having a big long moment. I don't focus on what it has taken away from me, just what it has changed in me and with me. There are positives to having MS and I remind myself of them often. Today, I feel trapped by it. I no longer have the ability to just get up and go like I did before. I only drive very short distances so I'm limited in where I can go independently. I know having the surgery has put me in a longer than usual flare, one that I can't take steroids for due to the risk of infection. I see progression. It's been slowly creeping in and when I look back to where I was shortly after being dx to where I am now, there is a big difference, mainly more fatigability, weakness, and gait trouble.

Today, I want to get out of my house and go do something. Go to the library, go visit DD's, go visit a friend of mine who is sick, go see my mom, go ANYWHERE! I took a walk around the complex and it helped, but the feeling is still there and on the brink of setting me off again. If I stiffle it, it will only come back with a vengance. Stiffling is never good. So, I decided to vent here instead of stiffling and hope that tomorrow I will be back to my accepting of MS self.