I did the driver's assessment today. I was surprised at how crappy I did on the cognitive stuff.

then surprised at how crappy I did the simulator stuff.

and then not at all that surprised at making the car zoom unexpectedly in the parking lot. (the driving instructor had a brake on her side too)

She said that I'd probably need four or five more sessions with her on the driving.

I know which car I'm getting now. Not the one I originally wanted and still want. I think I'm getting a minivan. I have a bad feeling about things lately. I think the minivan will make more sense tho. Hope it's as fun as the car I really wish I could get. Too bad the van will cost more than the car I actually want.

It's hard not to have a defeatist attitude. I really do feel pretty defeated. No matter what I try to do, it doesn't help. Things keep getting worse. I'm starting to raise the white flag.