Awwwwww Sally, I'm so sorry you're in a bad place at the moment. But, hey, so am I! Yes, I've been out via my new ramp a few times with my fur baby, but I totally understand about the loneliness. Anybody in our situations would probably feel the same at some point.

Today was a beautiful sunny day, but all I felt like doing was sleeping -- that's after staying in bed ALL day yesterday and half the night. Got up, had something to eat and fell asleep in my recliner until noon today. For some reason, my pain level has been a consistent 9 today too. There must be rain on the way.

Holidays are especially bad, I can so empathize with you. Family is having a birthday party for a little grandson (7), but there's no way I can get there and actually couldn't stand the heat and noise anyway. But somehow just knowing we can't get there if we wanted to, does a mental number on us. Like you said, who are we now? Certainly not the happy, carefree people we used to be but as many have said here, there are lots of ways to occupy our minds and the time. Maybe with an increase in the Paxil, you'll feel more "in tune" with the world.

Hang in there!! We all love you!!!!