I love the hair. it suites you. It's so good to put a face with the flygirl.



I'm feeling a bit less shocked now. I think he is too. I went to the post office and he told me to be careful. I'm sure he meant it, but my cynical side is saying it's just cuz I'm driving his deceased fathers car.

I'm just going to give him his space. At least I can start going through my stuff out in the open now. I haven't told my family that he knows yet. I did call my counselor and she said she was proud of me.

I am proud of me too . I didn't run from a difficult situation, I jumped in and faced the music. Wow maybe a month out from my 43rd b-day, I'm finally growing up.

Thanks to everyone for your support. I don't know how I would have gotten through this month without you all.

Great "Do", Cheryl. I love it. It looks so cool and comfy too and yet purty..

Beth, good for you sweety I hope things go smoother for you now. I know it's not a fun time.

Sending you lots of Hugs,

Oh, Beth, you must feel so liberated to have that huge hill behind you now. I know it's been eating away at you. Good for you, the future is coming and it has your name written all over it!

FG, looks pretty status quo to me.

Sal, you never fooled me. Now, that monkey? Well, I ain't so sure about that one.

I guess you can't see that the back has all been cut off...all 6 inches of it! Gone! It was down past my collar. Poof!

Well, I haven't seen it since Jan. so I probably missed all that carpet. It looks nice and blonde!

Yep...it's all gone...and it's much blonder too...I love it!

Liberated, what an awsome word. I am free If only I had a clue what was next. No sense in guessing, I'm not good at that. I will just keep my thoughts positive and see what life has in store.

I wish it were 3 weeks from now and I could be almost in OH. He is hurting me with his words during our "discussions" today. I'm exhausted but sure am not looking forward to sleeping in the same bed. He is so hurt and I just make things worse trying to tell him anything.

He wants to know why I won't try. I have nothing to say and he keeps telling me I'm giving up with out trying. I should never have come out here and wasted 2 years of his life.

I got a lot of personal growth with this experience but at his expense apparently. Selfish he says it is, but was was I to do, I wanted to give it a shot. I guess that's the problem with meeting online. You know a person to be a certain way, only from their words written and over the phone. The real test is the in person day to day stuff. Big life lesson there.

Thanks to everyone for the support and encouragement. I'm sure I'll be borrowing some more of it for a while. Not to worry though, I'm here for you too.

Holy cow! I have a week to get my doo doo together! My trip commences one week from tomorrow! Getting psyched to get out on the road!

The hand is a little worse, but not as bad as it could be. The "hard"-feeling numb patch is about the size of a half dollar and starts at the palm just under the ring finger. The odd thing is, it really only gets noticable when I stretch my hand flat. Man, I hope this goes away!

*leaning in to monitor, squinting*

Sheesh. Where is everyone?

Hi Cindy, can you see me here?

I have that numb patch feeling in the palm sides of my fingers, both hands. It's worse if I use them alot to type, or crochet, lift, whatever. I'm forever looking at them to see if they look as wierd as they feel. Nope just the same pudgy fingers as always. I used to take 1/2 a vicodin to take the edge off the strangeness. But now I have none left.

Jeez, one week until you leave, you better get on the ball if you want to be ready to go. Are you looking forward to the great escape? I know I'm thrilled for you. And so proud of you for keeping on. What is left to do?

Hi, Beth! Yep! I can see you over there.

Thanks, I'm getting pretty excited too. My first day, I'll be lunching with some friends and I'm pretty excited about that. Then it's on to the Badlands.

I have to pack my flyrods and fishing gear tomorrow. The rods go up in the interior roof via velcro and my wading gear goes in the secret comparment under the rear panels. I'll probably be too tired to fish once I have my waders and everything on, it has happened before!

Then my general junk bag needs packing (binocs, tripod, camera, corkscrew, etc.), and my warm layers for the elevations. After that, I think it's just a bunch of wash-n-wear jeans/t-shirts/shorts and I'm good to go.

I set up a photo website the other night and I'll upload pics as I go if you want to see them. It will probably be a ton of scenery, for every 100 really bad pics, I usually get at least one good shot.