Who was it who said.."The only thing to fear is fear itself" I'm older than you, but I stopped fearing what the future would bring when my future started getting shorter.

I still get down, as you know, when I realize that this is my life now and that I'm not going to get better, and never again, will I be able to do the things I once did as a younger, healthier person.

I have found that I am more content now, though, since I stopped fighting it. It seemed like the harder I fought the sicker I was. I seem to have platteaued now, in my illness. I know I'm going to keep getting older but I hope that my disease doesn't get any worse.

Do you know what "go with the pain" means? I used to have terrible ulcer pain and when I was in the deepest pain, I would take a deep deep breath and then let it out, say to myself "All the pain is now leaving my body" with every breath. After about 10 minutes or so, the pain would be gone.

I guess that's what I did with the MS...took a deep breath and said "what the hell" LOL! With the pressure of the fear and worry deminished, the MS doesn't seem as bad. I know, it's all in my head...well dammit, it is.

Take a deep breath, Cindy.