So still trying to get over a bit of shell-shock I suppose it could be called... that popping sound... turns out it was more than a minor little tear of a ligament, but the sound of a major tear to the rotator cuff in my shoulder which requires surgery or I could end up with further damage to the joint as well as nerve damage throughout the arm. And of course while waiting for the surgery date, no taking my arm out of a sling, refrain from bending, no lifting, move it as little as possible yada yada... and right after getting that news we had to rush my dad up to the ER since he was exhibiting signs of a massive stroke...

Turned out not to be a stroke, but a mature cataract that was leaking protein into his blind eye (he had cataract surgery on his good eye years ago) and raised the pressure of the eye so much so that the ER doctor thought the little pressure checker was miscalibrated, after spending that long trying to even figure out what was going on since all signs pointed to stroke except the labs and scans. He ended up quite lucky he didn't lose his eye in the end and is slowly recovering from it but now with the cancer treatments potentially starting soon, his doctors will need to decide which comes first, cataract surgery on a blind eye to prevent it from happening again as it will without the surgery or cancer treatment first and hope they can put off the eye surgery with medications until he's recovered enough.

And all the while my poor mom is bouncing between the two of us trying to take care of us. Oh and my DH also decided to join the party by getting himself zapped by 440 volts and has had chest pains since so he needs to see a cardiologist sometime next week... bad year

And last night we found out my father-in-law has cancer in one of his kidneys and they're removing it next Tuesday. he has copd and the surgery to do the biopsy almost took him out, what should have been an outpatient procedure turned into 3 days in the hospital and he still hasn't really recovered from it.

This has been a horrible year. Wake me up in 2018... just give a few weeks after the new year to see if it's shaping up to be a better year if not just walk away that's it, I really can't handle anymore bad news... like learning today that my aunt's broken arm hasn't healed right either so she might also need surgery...just can't handle anymore bad news, I'm DONE

And now snakes!!! Ya know what just leave me to hibernate through 2018 as well... I'm just ... just no, man just no...

Starz.... I'm sure you are anxiously looking forward to more positive things in 2018. Unfortunately for you, 2018 is 4 months away.

Hope and pray all goes well with your surgery.

Gerry

I do appreciate your prayers may god hear one of us because the DH just got off the phone with his sister and his dad has a nodule on his lung that may also be anything from more cancer to an infection of some sort, but they've no choice but to take his kidney now, so morbid though it sounds, if he survives that then they'll deal with the lung afterwards even though the mass could contribute to him not surviving his surgery. Maybe I should crawl into an icebox and get thawed out in 2020 but my mother at least is saving her own self some craziness by simply taking a leave of absence from work once she finishes up this week.

I'm super shocked that I haven't had another relapse with all of this going on not even a pseudo relapse but then I don't think my brain has had time to catch up with it all the worst of things has only been going on for a couple of weeks just daily dreading answering the phone or even crawling out of bed wondering what's going to happen today and how many of those "other" shoes can positively drop in a single day. Oh and my brother's getting divorced barely a week after he was under the impression things were going great in his relationship and they had gotten back on track.... 2020 might be too optimistic lol

Maybe with all that's going on your thoughts have been elsewhere and are too busy for a relapse....thank God for that......


Gerry

Omgoodness, Starz!!! You certainly have a lot going on right now. I said some prayers for you and your family. You have gotten hit by so much this year. I too hope that 2018 is a much better year.

Please remember to take some time for some self care. It really helps to when we take a little bit of time for ourselves, even if it's only 10 minutes.