Had to call the neuro today - legs are full of spasticity - Buzzing down my neck & back is back (L'Mittes?) - tongue & half of face is numb..... so tired and pain in my legs.

Neuro is on vacation till Tuesday but I did speak to her nurse and she had me call my PCP - she had me increased my Baclofen to 80 mg a day - make sure I take my Darvocet tonight and call her in the morning to let her know how I am. The nurse at Neuro told me that everything that is going on is all part of MS and since I have a probable this will help with the dx. I don't want a dx if this is how I am going to feel. I want to be me again.....

Just wanted to check in before going to bed. I don't feel good and I know the depression isn't helping me.... I need to get over the feeling sorry for myself. Riverwild told me I was going to have the "why me" stage - I am here. Cried coming home from class tonight...... I don't want to feel like this. Why me I asked myself and that I remembered RW and I talking about it. This really stinks (wanted to use a harsher word but know I can't)

ok, I am going to take the Darvocet and head to bed - I just hope this doesn't last long and I am better soon.

thanks for listening and letting me vent.

Oh, Char, it is hard, there is no doubt about that. But, you will get through this current hurdle because you are tough. There is a grain of wisdom from a wise woman I know, she says that, "Tough times don't last, tough people do."

Get yourself some rest and let us know how the upped dose did for you.

Sorry to hear this, I hope a good night's sleep finds you feeling better in the morning!

(((YB))) I am so sorry that you are not feeling well. With a definite diagnosis you will run a gamut of emotions. Always remember that we are here for you to help you through this. I am glad you took the time to post how you are feeling. I think that is great.

Take care, get some rest and "post us" in the morning.

Just sending hugs your way

Feel better soon

awww... bummer yb... it really does stink when you are reminded that ms has a mind of its own...

even after the dx, there is still the "i can't believe this is happening to me" dh replies, "i believe it"

Pity party tonight!

New day tomorrow!

Hope things are better for you this morning, sweetie. Remember, whatever He doesn't take away, He gets us through.

Thanks Cindy - sometimes "I" forget I say that when it comes to myself. Thanks for the reminder

Thank tkrik - I knew I would feel better just getting it out and who better to
get it out to than the folks who understand how I feel..... that is what makes this place so great!

B2U - My Gram, the person who I looked up to and meant the most to me for so many years, used to say something close to that.... "He wouldn't put it on your plate if he didn't think you could handle it". I sometimes think he is over loading my plate and I am ready to break but when I look to him for guidance I always seem to make it through...... thanks B2U.

This morning the spasticity (not as severe as yesterday though), tongue & face numbness and the L'Mette's are all still there, but the pain has subsided with the Darvocet and that makes a world of difference! I have a really hard time dealing with pain. Stiffness, Spasms & numbness I can deal with...... pain is another story. I am just hoping it will last through the day until I can take another Darvocet when I get home tonight.....

Thank you everyone for your support - I knew this was the place to come..... and emotionally I am better this morning as well. Just had to get it off my chest.

Ahhh Char!

I posted here last night, or I tried to, but Vista decided to update itself and shut me down before it actually got posted. I am glad to hear you sounding better this morning.

We ALL go through this, sometimes repeatedly. I always go back to what Mary said to me once about better living through chemistry. I didn't want to take any pharmaceuticals and I finally got around to the fact that my life HAD changed now and if I was going to keep ON GOING, I had to ask for meds.

It ain't easy trying to tell a doc what is happening when YOU don't even know what or why. I still keep a log of symptoms and where it hurts and when I go to the doc, they get the list. Pain gets rated on the 1-10 scale.

It's a LOT OF WORK!!

You've just gone back to school and work after a trip. You were sick. I'm willing to bet you're run down a bit too, along with the depression. Stop being so darned hard on you, you're doing the very best you can!

This isn't a lecture, it's me standing beside you and letting ya lean on me!

Let us know how you feel when you get home and if you need it, take another pill BEFORE it gets bad enough to make you cry!