I know that everybody, with or without MS, has days when they feel just a bit “off” with instances of extra forgetfulness or perhaps clumsiness. And, of course, having MS means that I have to deal with cognitive lapses and all sorts of other inconveniences that go along with this disease. But yesterday was way over the top! I don’t have an actual “job” any more, but I am starting my own home-based business. Yesterday I had an afternoon meeting. I got totally lost getting there, even though I am fairly familiar with that part of town. During the meeting, I was having trouble following the conversation. I am sure that part of it was that I know next to nothing about the subject of the meeting, so I was in unfamiliar territory to begin with. By the time the meeting was over, my brain nearly ached from trying hard to pay attention. On my way out of the building where the meeting was held, I got totally lost and I couldn’t find my way out of the building. The only “exit” I could find had stairs, and I walk with a rollator. Then I got out into the parking lot, and backed into a post. There was no damage to the post or my van, but it furthered rattled me. On the way home I decided to forgo a stop at the grocery store. I chuckled a bit when I realized that I was starting to be a danger to myself and others, so I just went home. Later, though, I started worrying. Have I lost even more cognitive function? I decided to just relax and read. To my horror, I realized that I had read the same paragraph over and over and still couldn’t understand what it said.

This morning I found myself considering canceling my plans for the day in case I still had that case of The Stupids. Is there any sort of medication I can take to clear my cog-fog? I am already isolated enough. I can’t start staying home just because I don’t feel up to it all.