[Gazelle]

Wow...... I forgot how bad it can be after the testing. I'm bushed.

It was pretty funny, the only question I remembered from my prior session (because it deeply disturbed me that I could not remember it) was: How are a fly and a tree similar? So I told them they couldn't ask me that question cuz I knew the proper answer. Told the neuropsych doc before the testing and told the person administering the tests. Um.... ok. They did and I gave the right answer and then answered it like I did the first time around. She just laughed.



There were so many numbers, dots, pictures, words..... I'm brain fried. Oh and how DO you do odds anyway? I mean, if you have 6 red paperclips, 4 green, and 2 yellow and you mix them up and select one, what are the odds that you'll get a green paperclip? I HATE MATH!!

Oh..... I strongly suggest not using words like : "appellation" or "antimony" if you are asked to name words beginning with A or using "Duck Billed Platypus" or "chinchilla" as an animal when asked to name lots of animals. I did and she just looked at me slightly askance.

I actually forgot what I was talking about once when talking to the neuropsych doc. Lends credence to what I've been saying (and forgetting I've been saying) about my stupid memory.

I'm gonna plop myself in front of the TV tonight and NOT think. I"m not even gonna talk to anyone tonight--just vegetate. Back to work tomorrow......where I have to think.

Oh and I despise those stupid questions that are T/F and ask you things like: If cornered, I would tell the portion of truth that would be the least harmful to me. Um how do you answer that? The truth itself contains "the portion of truth that would be the least harmful to me" so if you tell the truth it contains the portion. If you say True, then you're possibly limiting yourself to just the portion of the truth and not the whole truth? If you say False, are you not telling the truth and lying? <sigh> Maybe I overthink things.

It's kind of like lumping my parents and family into a category and asking a question. There was one question like that. It was something like My parents and family are more critical of me than they should be. It was true for my parents and false for my family. So which applies to me? Hmmm.... both. And I'm sure that I can't answer T and F. <sigh again> Separate out the parents from the family and I can answer the questions "as applied to me." Lump them together and I have a moral dilemma on how to answer the question cuz there's no right answer to it the way they phrase it.

And what's with all the "I love (loved--if deceased) my father" and "I love (loved--if deceased) my mother" questions? I have a not so good relationship with BOTH my parents and worse with my mother. I don't know HOW I feel about my dad and know I don't love my mom. Just ducky.

And during the lovely symbol/number/letter and 1,2,3,4 test I started to get a headache and get nauseous looking at her flipping the chart fast as I answered. So I had to cover one eye and really concentrate, which helped. But ugh..... THAT didn't happen to me before. (I had an insane urge to want to draw eyeballs in the white circles on the black background. Is that NORMAL??? )

I gotta go shut down now. Will throw ball with dog just to help STOP the questions in my head.