I'm getting friggin' tired of the pain! And I was so crabby at PT yesterday that I felt kind of bad about it. They were good sports and I actually felt a little better about everything at the end but boy, I just wanted to rip someone's head off yesterday. Grrr....

The upper back's much better and so is the neck. That's great. What's not great is the lower back--the lumbar spine area. I'm doing a piriformis stretch and thought that maybe I pushed it too hard because I'm getting this burning/stabbing pain right in my butt cheeks--sort of in the hip joint. It feels like I'm sitting on tennis balls and it's uncomfortable.

By sitting on them, I mean like I've been sitting on them for hours and should get off them. But I can't. It's been getting worse. Plus, I didn't say anything to the PT guy Paul (he's a sweetie) all last week because I thought that it was just a mild muscle strain and I didn't want to whine. So when he asked how I was doing, I just said fine. He called me on it last night at PT.

Last night he asked when I see my doc next and told me to give it a rest to see if it calms down. I have PT tomorrow. He said he didn't think it was muscle pain. Great, that leaves two choices: nerve or disc. And when I said sciatic, he didn't think that was it.

Today I took 600 mg of Ibuprofen 2x. I'm going to take another 600 mg tonight before bed. The pain in the butt has been a bit better today, but still not good. Yesterday it was to the point where I couldn't ignore it--it was just always there and was distracting.

This has been since the end of August. I'm SICK TO DEATH of this at this point. Someone make it go away for me, ok? Just wave your magic wand and take it away.

And you know what else? My feet were numb last night, my whole right leg was numb and my feet were numb today, and my left arm felt weird, and 1/2 my face (right side) felt weird, my lips felt sort of numb and so did about 1/2 my tongue, and I'm just NOT a happy camper. Plus, I'm so bloody tired.........

I couldn't even enjoy a walk with my dog.

And last night at PT, I just wanted to cry--and almost did. Dang.