First of all understand that pain can make you feel crazy. I take 100 mg of Tramadol every morning, just to get to work. That is a mild narcotic. I take ibuprofen several times a day. When the pain is really bad I take more Tramadol, however I pay for it with terrible constipation and dehydration. I was diagnosed in April of 2007 and started taking pain meds in November of 2007. The doc started me on Naproxen, it did nothing. Honestly you sound like you might benefit from a mild antidepressant. I resisted that, however have been on a mild dose of Zoloft since October and feel so much better. I think it actually helps with the pain. Be careful however I went on Cymbalta for a six week period, felt AWESOME for the first month. More energy and no pain, no pain,no pain, did you hear me. I thought I had found the magic potion, then all hell started to break lose in my bowels. I had tan stools, suffered from jaundice and when I checked and found that I was experiencing terrible side effects. I am not off of that thank God. Give yourself a break and forgive yourself. Humor helps. Take care.