On my 2 yr Anniversary, I was in remission and denial.. I was way too busy with a second grader in a new school, 11 yr old and 13 yr old stepsons and a new house....Oh yes, and a DH to raise..

I had only miniml symptoms and was bothered by the heat a lot, but lived a pretty normal life for a long time. I would say that my second year realization came in 1992, 17 yrs after my initial DX, when I had my second BIG exacerbation from H e l l.. That was the real start of my decline into the abyss of MS..

I am so sorry for your loss, Finlady..

Hi Finlady,

I'm about to reach my second year anniversary too. Hard to believe that 2 years have gone by. I'm glad you have the art to bring some meaning and happiness into your life! Sometimes I think that I've come along way in 2 years, esp. when I remember the first few months after diagnosis. Other times I think that having this disease still produces way more anxiety than is healthy for me--I know this because occasionally I allow myself to imagine what it would be like not to have MS and my life seems like it would be so less stressful and more carefree. I find that upsetting sometimes. I'm still searching for a place where I can feel content.
Anyhow, good luck on the path toward health.

Natalie

Thank you for your update. I am about two years now I think?! I was talking with my husband today about having to just accept ms as a new way of life. Denial really didn't work well So now that I have accepted it I'm not fighting so much with my old self. Right now I'm going thru a thing with not sleeping then finally wearing out and sleeping for a day and night. I'm just going to be okay with that and my family is learning to accept it to.

I hope you are really hanging in there. I know it can be discouraging at times. But like you, I'm so glad for all the people here who really understand.

Thank you!

Think the MRI went well this time. Valium almost made me nap in the machine, which is a good thing. I'm usually very tense since I don't like feeling trapped. But the tech thinks the pics came out good, crossing fingers.

Thanks everyone.

Sometimes I wonder what my life would have been like had my DH been around to experience MS with me. And my parents? Ya know? Would I have had an easier transition? Would they have been able to cope with it? I'm pretty sure they would.....but I'll never know. I'm glad my parents didn't have to have the additional worry I know my dx would have caused them. For that I'm grateful.

So many here have a significant other to share their fears and concerns with. I just wonder sometimes what it would be like to have that. Not trying to sound sad....just wondering.

Do you find it easier to deal with having someone there with you everyday that you can vent/cry/lean on?

Yes, in a way, it is easier, Kell. I miss my cheerleader DH. On the other hand, he was not well either and I think his worry for me made it harder for him.

We have our Kids and I think our DHs are in a better place and may be helping us more than we know..

Absolutely!

Yes. Being alone and disabled is the pits. On the other hand, I don't want to have to train a new "someone" ever, so will just deal with it by myself and my kids.

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