I give up.

I don't know how to deal with this.
I have always been strong enough to deal with things i cannot change but this is different... this is deeper than just physical pain.
How do you guys deal with the depression?
Knowing that we are not normal, knowing that we pretty much come with instructions?

I am alone battling this, and i'm tired.

I'm tired of working two jobs to pay bills, i'm tired of feeling useless.
I lost my fiancee because of MG, even though he never said that was the reason i know it. he's active, always on the move, and i'm... well, sick!

If i'm tired and lay down for a while i get up feeling WORSE. the muscle stiffness increases by 100%.
I have to constantly be on the move or i crash... but I'm TIRED.
Sleep never comes, and when it does i am filled with nightmares!
Crying helps...

i wish i knew someone else with MG, just to give them a big hug.
to hug someone who knows EXACTLY what i'm going through would be helpful...
I'm sorry for this... i just needed to vent!