Welcome to NT!

I’m sorry for your suffering. As others here can testify, not knowing what is causing it can add mightily to the burden.

Never feel the need to apologize for writing too much. We’re all here to listen. I understand how much easier it can be to communicate on NT than in the “real” world. I have a brain boo boo that makes it difficult for me to speak clearly. Even without that barrier, I’m not sure that “norms” would understand what I was saying anyway. Even my local support group is of limited value: this is a small area so there isn’t the anonymity one sometimes needs to talk openly.

NT is full of wise, caring and inspiring people. I hope that you will find it a place where you can say what you need to say and feel that you are always being heard.

Cheers

hi dance and welcome,
i feel for your physical and mental pain. i've dealt with both in my life too.
i found a great therapist and he has helped me so much to learn how to handle life's difficulties.

you've gotten some great advice.
i hope you find all you need here.
again, welcome.