Hi. I am trying to respond to another post, but because of my recent health problems I am having trouble reading and using the computer. I am trying to respond to another person named Candace, so please excuse my current lack of ability to locate it. My name is Candace too. It means light, incandescence and warmth from what I have read about the name in a couple of name books. I too had surgery had surgery for an inner ear infection that became horribly infected and I became violently ill on March 9, 2010, I saw my doctor on March 10 and on March 11 he fit me in his surgery schedule because I was experiencing nausea for the first time in my life that was so bad I couldn't even hold down water. I had the surgery then I became violently ill that night and my 17-year-old son was so concerned that he called 911 in the morning and went to the hospital with me where they gave me anti-nausea drugs and he took the day off from school to spend the day taking care of me. Then I came back for a follow-up appointment with my doctor on March 19. He was so concerned about my physical symptoms and my state of mind that he wanted me to stay in hospital, but I was worried about what it would cost, so I convinced him that I try being at home, being taken care of by my daughter, which turned out not to be a very good idea because she was having some very serious problems of her own, recovering from a gunshot wound to the face by an unstable (and now in jail) boyfriend. I wound up having a very bad reaction to the anesthetic (I always do) and the anti-nausea medicine and I suffered many falls, the last one being so bad that I had a slight concussion when I was sleep walking (more like sleep running...something I never do under normal circumstances) and I plowed head-first into the bathroom door with my son doing his best to catch me and he tried to pull me back from hitting my head, but I still got hurt. I tried to take care of it myself, but I had to go back into the emergency room and they kept me in the hospital for a couple of days for observation. Since that time I have tried desperately to get caught up with all of my mother's taxes, bills and appointments while trying my best to help my children and I am so despondent about the reception I've been getting from the people around me that I don't know where to turn. I didn't have a brain aneurysm that I know of, though my father, whom I take after, died from one when he was only 74. I am 53. The cat-scan they did looked "fine" they said, but the vertigo has been pretty bad at times, though I am finally getting some physical therapy for that. My main problem is that of trying to get back into my normal routine and I haven't had much sympathy at all from my family, they seem more concerned about all that I haven't been getting done for them. I was told to get rest and to get help to get back on my feet again, but I've been easily upset and depressed and I am astounded at how cold some people have been towards me since this happened. I had to use a cane for awhile and I've been having trouble talking, writing and typing as well, though thank God I still have all my number, math and music abilities (strong points of mine) in tact. I am depressed and frustrated and I feel like there is something possibly more wrong with me and like I'm not progressing as I should. All the bruises on the outside are diminishing, but I still seem to be a mess on the inside. What should I do? My family is getting more and more and frustrated with me. A psychiatrist I saw a couple of times said she couldn't help me and I'm not even sure why. I just know that I am not myself and I'm scared that I might not ever return to my former self, though some tell me that I am showing some signs of improvement. I don't smoke or drink and walking my dog was always my calming behavior and I'm having a lot of trouble with that. What can I do to make things better? What is the matter with me? Why do I have such an awful time with anesthetic? How do I find out if I am developing a brain aneurysm like my father did? Thanks for your helpful information, Candace Mc

Hi

You are certainly troubled right now.

There's lot of caring people here. We understand how frustrating it can be, although I've not experienced what you're gong through. When one's life is turned upside down, for whatever the reason, it is very traumatic for you. Here's a hug for you...

There's lots of research here. I'm sure you'll find helpful hints from other posts.

Depression is a difficult thing to overcome, as I am struggling with that right now. I know how difficult those dark, lonely and despairring moments are...(moments - I wish)

I do find much peace and comfort in God's word. It seems to bring me back to center more than anything else.

I am much quieter than I have ever been, and that seems to be okay with me for now. I really couldn't find the words to express some of the feelings I have experienced nor do I even want to anymore. Not sure what that's all about either but that's okay too.

We're here for you. You're not alone in the big world. Others here understand.

Hello and welcome to NeuroTalk. Happy to see you have come to be with us. Just let us know if we can be of any help.

There are great number of fellow members here to assist as possible. My thoughts and prayers are with you.

Again welcome, looking forward to seeing you around.

Darlene

Hi Candace,
I am really feeling for you right now, you are in a very scary place inside and no one is listening it feels, but mostly it is because they are frustrated because they do not have answers to help you, give them time and understanding and go easy on yourself most of all.
when i read your post something inside responded to some of the similarities and something that might be worth checking out is rhumatoid arthritis, I know that sounds absolutely crazy but my dad had horrific vertigo, couldnt stay balanced and even passed out and he had no other symptoms at all, just those. he was in hospital for weeks having everything neuro checked out and it was all ok. for some reason they did some other tests and R.A. came up. within months he was told he would be in a wheelchair within 2 yrs as it was agressive. he believed it was auto immune infection and treated himself with the help of a doctor taking massive amts of antibiotics to kill the infection in the joints, that was 18yrs ago he is in his late 60's and playing league tennis and has been in remission for yrs. but it ALL started with vertigo. I know this does not answer all of your questions, but it may be worth looking into if nothing but to rule it out. good luck and god bless. Michelle