[stmichael1970]

Hello my name is Michael I'm new to this site. And have Brain Aneurysms back in February 7 th 2008 I had my largest aneurysm clipped it took over 15 hours and 3 clips to fix this aneurysm 10 mm was the size but my aneurysm wasn't shaped like a bubble but it was more like a hot dog shape. And because of the weird shape it had flipped over and wrapped around other arteries and and blood vessels. The Aneurysm is a left middle cerebral aneurysm, before the surgery I had really bad head pains, and severe mood and anger problems. Now after the surgery I still have a couple more Aneurysms left and waiting for their time to be fixed.I still have severe headaches constantly, dizziness, some. Days my vision is blurred and never suffered from depression and I'm got lots of anger,and actual psychological problems. Etc. .... I am glad to be alive short term and long term memory losses, concentration problems, following instructions, and comprehension problems and spelling words backwards, and constantly never finish what I start but I'm still alive!!!!!!!! I thank God everyday. Thanks again for listening to me.

[Alffe]

Hi Michael and welcome to Neuro Talk. I'm glad you've joined us..great place to give and share information...sounds like you have been through a lot! Here is the link to our Aneurysm forum..http://neurotalk.psychcentral.com/forum7.html

[(Broken Wings)]

Welcome to NT

I'm glad you found this site.

You will find lots of caring people here to share you experiences with.

You're not alone here.

[azoyizes]

Hi Michael, and welcome to NT!

This is a great site with a lot of friendly and caring people.

Feel free to jump in whenever and wherever you feel comfortable.

[redtail]

Hi Michael, and welcome to Neurotalk

this is a great place, full of helpful and caring people.
If you need any help just ask, we will be more than happy to help.
take care
Kate

[Hockey]

[QUOTE=stmichael1970;620622]... but I'm still alive!!!!!!!! I thank God everyday./QUOTE]

Hello Michael and welcome to NT!

All of us with brain injuries are only too aware of the symptoms you described and the ways they impact our daily lives. It's really hard, isn't it.

However, I'm so impressed that you've so quickly discovered and embraced that the most important thing is the gift of your continued existence. It takes many of us years to accept this. Some of us never do. I'll admit that I'm still struggling to be thankful.

Bravo to you, my friend!

[vini]

welcome Micheal

sorry you have had to have this surgery there are many helpful people and many boards here at NT a brain injury can be got through many ways, also at many different levels and locations there is good advice and support on our tbi /pcs board links ect

hope to see you around

NT link http://neurotalk.psychcentral.com/forum92.html

best wishes

[NurseNancy]

hi michael,

i'm glad you're alive too.
it sounds like you've been thru a lot with still some more to come.

NT is a great place to be for info and support.
look around and find a forum that meets your needs.

great to have you here.

[MelodyL]

Originally Posted by stmichael1970

Hello my name is Michael I'm new to this site. And have Brain Aneurysms back in February 7 th 2008 I had my largest aneurysm clipped it took over 15 hours and 3 clips to fix this aneurysm 10 mm was the size but my aneurysm wasn't shaped like a bubble but it was more like a hot dog shape. And because of the weird shape it had flipped over and wrapped around other arteries and and blood vessels. The Aneurysm is a left middle cerebral aneurysm, before the surgery I had really bad head pains, and severe mood and anger problems. Now after the surgery I still have a couple more Aneurysms left and waiting for their time to be fixed.I still have severe headaches constantly, dizziness, some. Days my vision is blurred and never suffered from depression and I'm got lots of anger,and actual psychological problems. Etc. .... I am glad to be alive short term and long term memory losses, concentration problems, following instructions, and comprehension problems and spelling words backwards, and constantly never finish what I start but I'm still alive!!!!!!!! I thank God everyday. Thanks again for listening to me.

Hi Michael.

I marvel at your attitude and your taking the time to come here and post your story. You are indeed a very brave and caring individual. You have probably helped many people just by posting your story. People can compare their symptoms and might even go to the doctor and get themselves checked out. I am so sorry to hear what you have gone through. No one should have to do this. You are a survivor and I most certainly welcome you and wish you well.

You will beat this.

We are very grateful to have you here.

Melody

[willbt]

Michael:

My name is Will. I had a ruptured brain aneurysm right temporal lobe, 1991. Most of your symptoms match mine to a "T."

Has your doctor ever used the term "organic personality change" around you? This was my most serious and damaging after effect : basically, since our personality resides upstairs in the grey matter, when something goes wrong up there, it can change your personality. In my case, I became "The Old Me" [all my bad traits] X 1,000!

I am particularly interested in - and curious to understand - your "glad to be alive" reaction. It seems to be a very common refrain amongst many survivors. But not for me. I lsot my career, my health, my friends, my feelings of 'wellness' - on that g.d. operating table! I wish those "Hero Complex" doctors had just let me die. It seems to be with them: "WE CAN save him...so WE WILL"...regardless of the diminished quality of my life post-op.

I have been suicidal. Once. I don't recommend it.

I wonder if you would care to explore here this admittedly existential question, "I'm just glad to be alive" ? In my own experience, it just hasn't been worth it. Like Godot...I feel everyday as if I'm waiting...but for what?

John Lennon wrote a lyric, "Tomorrow Never Knows" back in 1966 on The Beatles "Revolver" album. Part of the chorus goes like this : "He said...He said...I know what it's like to be dead. I know what it is to be sad. i know what it's like to be mad." This resonates with me. I walk around everyday feeling just like that.

Oh! One last word or advice: DO MOT let your neurosurgeon just walk away and forget about you, as if you were just another notch in his belt. Demand that he continue to follow up with you - for years if necessary. My surgeon totally left me adrift, and that caused me inestimable damage when I did not get the post-op support that I needed.

I look forward to hearing from you on my query.