Hello Everyone,

I have never joined any support group before, but I am at my ends wit, hitting the rock bottom, out of option, feeling alone and I dont know what else to do. I feel like I cant talk to most people about my problem b/c they will judge me and think I am a drug addict. I was having problems with neck pain that started in about august or before, it was awful, I went to pain managment, they did a pee test and gave me oxycodone. That was all they could really do, so I did that for months, I was taking over 120 pills of 5 mg every 2 weeks, then I got an injection, 2 weeks later I felt a lot better and weened myself off the oxycodone bc I dont want to take pain meds the rest of my life, Im only 25. So I was doing good, then of course, I was in a bad car accident, a woman pulled out on me, totalled my car and my neck and back. I went to the hospital, they told me I needed to see a nuerosurgeon, so I made the apt. A week later I went in, he gave me oxycondone7.5mg, take 1-2 every 4 hrs for pain and told me I would be in his care for at least a year. I am in severe pain, I cant do anything, I have a 7 month old baby and I cant even feed him, it hurts too bad. So Ive been seeing the neuro since the begining of Nov. I get 120 7.5 oxycodone about every 13-14 DAYS from him b/c that is how often I have to take it for my pain. There are times, almost everynight that I wake up in the middle of the night and have to take meds to get out of pain so I can go back to sleep...So I went in for my exam about 3 weeks ago and he said my right arm is pretty bad, when he asked my to push out on his hand I pulled, so he wanted me to see the surgeon in the practice and dicuss surgery, he said it was totally up to me. So I went in the following week and met the surgeon, he said I am young and have a few bulging discs in my neck, like 2 herniated and one in my lower back, but didnt feel he wanted to do a surgery just yet. I agreed, if I can stay away from that I would like to, so we decided to do an epidural steroid injection. I had that done on Mon, so 2 days ago.... I am in extreme pain, more than I was before the injection, now the back of my arm hurts, my shoulder hurts, I have pain going down the right side of my rib cage, there is like a ribbon of pain going around the upper half of my back my neck still hurts right in the middle, but way worse and I have lost some function in my right hand and my lower back seems to hurt worse now too for some reason. I can pick things up, but keep dropping them, I couldnt zip my sons sweater, I couldnt open a pill bottle or soda, I have dropped 3 cups of water. So I called him back today and left a msg. I told him the pain meds are not helping, and that mixed with the soma they told me to take is making me dizzy, or loopy, so if there was a diff medicine I would try it. I also told him everything about the pain I just listed. He called back and said him and the other dr I was seeing befor I saw the surgeon have spoken and decided He has been giving me the max of pain meds, and they dont feel they are controlling my pain, he doesnt want to do the surgery b/c Im young, and hes sorry the injection didnt work, he said with injections its hit or miss, it will either help or it wont, so they feel I should go see a pain managment specialist to control my pain and that way another set of eyes can take a look, or I can get a second opinion about the surgery from another dr. He said so at this point we have reached the max of meds we can give you and this is where we stand, we have to wait and see how it goes. I asked, well what about my hand, how do we fix that, and he said we just have to wait and let it all heal on its own, he doesnt want to do any further treatment basically. so now I am freaking out b/c I dont know if he was saying that they are not going to refil my meds when its time, and I have researched my meds and you are not supposed to stop them abruptly or you can have serious withdrawl symptoms. I also dont want to go to a pain management dr. I feel all they do is give you meds, and I dont want to continue to live in pain and jsut half way mask it. I dont know what to do or what to think. Any suggestions, questions or feedback would be greatly appreciated. Im so tired of being in pain, im in pain everyday all day in multiple areas. Also if the dr originally told me he wanted to keep me in his treatment why are they telling me they want me to go to pain managment? Thanks in advance