[ashby.]

I'm 16. And I feel as if I'm losing my mind.

I recieced a concussion two and a half months ago during a high school soccer match.
I'm the goalie for my team and during a heated match with our rival, I dove for the ball just as an opposing player kicked. I took the full blunt of her kick to the face. Snapped my neck back, busted my nose, everything went black.

I don't really remember the incident. I just remember playing, then waking up on my back, arms over my head. Numb.

The symptoms didn't really set in until 30 minutes later. I couldn't walk strait, nauseated, headache, it seemed as if I was viewing the world through an old timy movie, where I could see the flicks between the scenes.

This was only the beginning.

I could handle the pain, I'm use to that. But the mental part was horrible. The memory issues started the next day. At lunch I gave a straw to my mom, then a minute later angrily asked why shed taken my straw. Later, I thought I was my grandma rewind the Tv.

The feeling of going crazy is the worst. After every "episode" id break down. I couldn't help it. It was as if Id lost control of my brain.

The next day at the neurologists, I couldn't remember the day. Needless to say, that was the end of the soccer season for me. I was prescribed meds to help me sleep, insomnias always been a problem of mine. And the vivid dreams I was now having did not help.

Im a different person now. I used to read all the time, now that's lost its joy.I was a straight A student, in all advanced classes,now I don't know how this next school year will go. I'm pessimistic. Unmotivated. Ive even lost my drive for soccer. Whenever I try to find a goal to strive for I question "what's the point?˝. When I lay awake at night I lose touchwith reality. Sometimes I don't even know if I'm really hear. I guess having read works by Orwell and Atwood just at fuel to the fire.

I just want help. I want to know that I'm really here. Cause I don't know much of anything anymore.

I'm losing me.

[Blessings2You]

Hi Ashby, I see you've found our forum for TBI--I know you'll find someone there who can come alongside you and understand what you're going through. Sometimes it's busy here, and sometimes it's a little slower (especially on weekends), so don't get discouraged if it "seems" as though people aren't responding--they will!

I'm sorry you're going through this! If I remember clearly, all these many years ago, it's tough enough to be sixteen even WITHOUT such serious medical problems. Hang in there! You've come to a good place in joining this community.

P.S. Feel free to jump in any of the other forums also!

[Darlene]

Ashby,

Hello and welcome each of you to NeuroTalk. Happy to see you have come to be with us. Here are a great number of dear friends to listen when you are in need of ears. Please let us know how we can help you out. You will find out we are supportive and relaxing place.

Again welcome, looking forward to seeing you around. My thoughts and prayers are with you.

Darlene