Hi=Petitelady; My heart goes out to you and admire the person you are you stood by him for several years thru thick and thin and you wouldnt be normal if you didnt feel this way. Nobody wants to be alone and you been dealing with this for several years and he still sounds like this might be the best he going to be. Im sure people will have all kind of oppinions but at the end of the day it your life and nobody has the right to judge you if you chose to reach out for the companionship of another man. I wish you all the best!!