[winter_luna]

Hey everyone,

Really happy to have found your site, very friendly and welcoming
I've just been diagnosed with possible Temporal Lobe Epilepsy (eg) my neuro is very sure this is the case, but I am awaiting MRI and EEG to see if anything shows up.)

I've been struggling lately not knowing for sure if I do have epilepsy...it makes a lot of sense and I think I've probably had simple partial seizures for a large portion of my life. As a child I remember having moments of strong emotion in my stomach i couldn't describe, a sense of unreality that would only last a few moments and so on. In the last few years I began to see lights-a purple light that dances in front of my eyes usually when I'm lying in bed, making patterns. Also I see white lights which move and reform around objects and people at times. I've struggled with headaches and feeling generally 'off' for years.

The last few months have become worse...I had to leave my job and move in with my partner due to my inability to cope. I began experiencing altered mind states that scared me half to death and delusions/slight hallucinations. I couldn't cope with the strange feelings and thought I must have a psychological/psychiatric problem. The psychiatrist disagreed and I finally saw a neuro.

Now, I can see the seizure pattern, and I can understand the strange head sensations/nausea/dissasociation/twitches (yep, I've begun to twitch/spasm too) and not react with full on panic. Which is good! After a simple partial I feel pretty confused for what can be up to a few hours.

Sometimes I still need reassurence though after something new pops up or happens, and especially with these tests comming up (I'm clautrophobic...mri eeep!) So...that's why i've joined

Sorry this is so long and thanks for the great community! Look forward to meeting you all.