Oh my gosh.

Your post is so upsetting to me that I can barely concentrate enough to understand it properly.

Did you really say you were diagnosed with pernicious anemia 22 years ago? and you've never been on B12 shots?

I am in shock.

I am amazed that you are alive.

My mother had it and I have some kind of problem with low B12...

It was hard for me to get shots early on... but then on Christmas Eve one year the doc gave me a prescription to give myself shots, and from then on it was improvement that I had not even imagined was possible.

In terms of gifts in my life, that was the big one. Or, one of them. I tend to be a very lucky person.

I sure hope you are taking Methylcobalamin now. If you aren't and start, do keep notes so that you can look back and see how it actually affected you and your symptoms. That can be very useful to know.

I have to go back, now, and read your post again. I hope I can understand better, now that I've released my shock.

I'm so glad you joined this forum. You will find so much invaluable information!

(((((((((leeanne))))))))))

OMG, I'm nearly crying now that I read about your depression. I was so depressed and so unable to deal with things that in May, 1997 I tried to kill myself. That's when the hospital found my low B12. But I wasn't put on shots for nearly a year after that.

The thing is, that now I'm having similar problems to those I had then, foreclosures, etc. and I'm not depressed. I'm tired, and freaked out by the courts and the prejudice and discrimination, but I am not depressed.

((((((((leeanne)))))))))

If you read the research excerpts at the bottom on my Fingernails page, you will see that depression has been found to be associated with low B12.

Not for everyone, I'm not saying that all depression is a result of low B12. Some is, some is not.

If you are lacking in intrinsic factor, you depression may well be associated with your low B12.

((((((((((leeanne)))))))))))

I just read and comprehended that you are on shots now but feel as if you are getting worse.

You didn't say how many shots you have, in what period of time.

I had a shot a month for awhile and improved. But then the nuerologist I was seeing said to have more when I was under stress. So I think I sort of combated some of the stress.

Then to make a long story short, a doctor gave me a prescription for a shot a day for a year... and that made HUGE improvements take place.

The doctor was holistic. Maybe you could find a holistic doctor near where you are.

((((((((leeanne))))))))))

One thing about taking B12 and getting worse, is that I think stress really devours B12... so if you were getting better and then you were under stress, you would need more B12 to remain at your new, improved level. Only you would onlly be getting the regular amount... so you wouldn't be able to sustain the improvement, and that would be stressful, in terms of how you were feeling, and so that in itself would require more B12... just to handle the stress.

I don't know if that made any sense. I'm sure it's true, but I'm really tired and I'm not sure I'm writing clearly.

Time to say good night... perhaps.