I don't know how I go here, just surfing the web. I read of several suicides and needed to talk. I am a recent widow of an acute alcoholic. Although all his family want to believe his death an accident, after 17 years marraige I knew him better than anyone and believe it to be intentional. I am left with two little girls, one of who will never remember her daddy and the other who will never forget. I am desperately trying to start a new life and even though I am on anti-depressants, I am an emotional wreck. Is there anyone out there who feels the need to talk and can listen to my pain?

Dear nohope

I am so glad you found our community, tho so sorry to hear the reason you are here

we have a couple of forums here that I know you will be welcomed in and supported during this very hard time
especially our survivors of suicide forum, where i know you will be enveloped in care and understanding

I copied your post over to that board

here is the link so you can check for replies
http://neurotalk.psychcentral.com/sh...ad.php?t=36788

my deepest condolences and I pray there will be hope that dawns out of this darkness for you and your little ones

Cheri

Hang in there. You will find strength inside of you.

Knee mail sent up for you.

just bumping this up for you nohope, so that you can also check the SOS forum.

(((((((((nohope)))))))))

hope you see this

Nohope, I am sorry you are going through all of this. I know that this is a difficult time for you but hang in there and give it some time.

Saying prayers for you and your little ones.

Hi Nohope, I'm so sorry for all that you're going through. It's so hard to lose someone - time will help but right now I know that's probably not much comfort to you. I'm saying prayers for you now - and hoping that you feel some comfort and peace in your life.

Hi nohope and Welcome to NT. I see Chemar has steered you in the right direction. I'm hoping that after your'e here awhile, that maybe we'll have to change your name to just HOPE.

This is a great place for people just like you, to ask for help and understanding... take care and glad you found us...

Thank you for your well wishes. Hope is all I need, but has never been so hard to find.

I am so sorry I hope that you and your girls are able to find peace. I can not even begin to imagine what you have been through. Hang in there, Mama.

(((((((((((((hugs)))))))))
to you and your girls hunny.........
I lost a bro in the same situation your describing.
He left two daughters too...although a little older. the oldes was about to give birth to her first born. My bros first grandchild........and she was adorable........he would have so loved her.

How long ago did this happen hun? Is there family or friends around you to help you deal with this? Can you go to a church or a hospital for a support group? There are so many folks out there who will help ya.......

PLUS You always got us here..........

Feel free to email or pm me anytime you need an ear (eye) to know what your going through.....ANYTIME..........

hugs and hearts,
Kay