I have been where you are and would gladly told with you. There is not much that the devil has not toss at me to try and break me. We can and will pull through. Barefootangel

I have a very supportive husband and 2 sons. I feel isolated from the rest of my family I am so affraid i will hit rock bottome. I feel like i dont deserve my husband i have put him through so much especially the last suicide attempt because he had to see me like that and didnt know if i would pull out of it and he was blaming himself for it and it wasnt his fault i am ill and i need help I am looking into the vns surgery my therapist and primary care physician feel like it might be my last hope so tomorrow i go to a neuroligst to see what he thinks and whether i can go to a neurosurgeon to get it done I just might see a light at the end of the tunnel but once again i feel like nothing good ever happens to me its just one let down after another and i feel like if this doesnt work this might be my last chance. depression is horrible and wouldnt wish this on anybody. and i know it was hard for my husband to take care of my kids while i was in icu for 4 days than 302ed to an impatient program for a week and i thank him and dont know why he puts up with me or why i deserve him.

Denise you deserve to have a life worth living and we'd love to help you up from the floor. Many here have worried about you, prayed that you are still with us for your families sake.

I lost my only son to suicide and it changed our family forever. Please keep talking about what you are feeling...this forum (particularly the Survivors of Suicide Forum) is the place to get the support you need. We take turns holding each other up there and we do not judge you for having those thoughts.

If you click on this link....http://neurotalk.psychcentral.com/forum29.html

it will take you there. And good luck at the dr.

Denise, please heed what Alffe is saying. This is a wonderful caring group and we are worrying about you.

Please check onto the link that Alffe provided so that some-one can maybe help you through this tough spell.