Hello Everyone! I've just joined your forum. Have been reading a lot of the comments on this site and feel waves of empathy flowing from me to all of you. I've suffered from Trigeminal Neuralgia for over 10 years and have been on every drug under the sun. This summer I decided that I wanted to be drug free so I weaned myself off everything slowly. Depression hit me badly. The only thing that kept me on the planet was my beloved cats (I'm feline crazy!). Not only that, but after a month the pain returned with avengence. Reluctantly, I decided to go back on Lyrica which has helped to ease the pain. What is this life all about? I cannot find any meaning at all. I have been blessed to have been born in the First World with all the creature comforts that any human being could desire but I am cursed to live in a Hell of Pain. Not very optimistic but that's how I feel. I also feel a failure because I haven't been able to "psych" myself out of the pain. I read Brandon Bay's book about reaching down to your inner "camp Fire" but I couldn't talk to my pain. I'm so utterly frustrated with my life. AHHHHHHH!!!