[prairiemary]

I have been at NT for a month or so now, and I am soo happy that somehow I found this amazing place! I am still learning about computers, and still learning how to use threads, post,etc., I have most likely made alot of mistakes on here, but so far, I have not been told that I have done anything wrong! I have had many challenges in my life, I had really severe epilepsy as a child, I was physically and emotionally abused at home,became a teenage mom to a beautiful baby girl,raped,beaten,divorced,remarried,miscarried,ha d to start all over after we lost the farm,my house burned down(lost precious items),got severe Guillian-Barre syndrome 13 years ago,left with severe pain from nerve damage,lost a daughter to cancer 2002,a second accident left one limb paralysed,a bad fall last july with another concussion. This seems like alot, I guess that it is, but I am a very strong woman,and keep bouncing back, somehow.I have written a book, but that is where it ended, as I have NO IDEA what to do next, to try to get it published! Yes, I talk alot, I get teased about my lengthy emails,but emailing is my outlet, as I tend to keep alot deep inside, yet with emails, I let alot of it out. I am always available to listen, and help if I feel like I can. I live way out in the country, with a husband who wishes he had the guts to leave me-but says people would think badly of him if he left a disabled wife. No money for divorce, too move out, start over. I am unable to work, so was really counting on my book for a future income, but that does not look like it will happen, so instead,I live in sadness. See how long this is!? I guess I better end it! Thanks for listening to me, would love to hear from you! Oh,yes, my life does get busy with my 3 small dogs, they need me and give me back so much love!

[Alffe]

Hi Mary, nice to meet you. If you've been at NT for a month already I'm sure you know your way around. I can't help you with the book but am sure that someone can. Welcome.

[mrsD]

Hi...

You might want to check out Amazon's Book Surge:

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[Kitty]

Hi Mary and welcome to NeuroTalk!

Writing our feelings down is a great outlet....very therapeutic. You've dealt with quite a bit in your life and I admire your resilience.

I'm sure you've already visited the Epilepsy Forum but just in case you haven't here is the link: http://neurotalk.psychcentral.com/forum11.html.

If you have any questions any one of us here will be happy to help you.

[(Broken Wings)]

Hello, and Welcome, little buddy.

Your life is certainly a testement to adversity and strength. I know you've had lots of valleys and you're still willing to help others. You are a special person. We need you here at NT. We learn from each other. We lean on each other. My shoulders are getting stronger every day. You can lean on me, little buddy. You can PM me anytime. (PM = personal message-click on my AVATAR "Brown-eyed girl" to the left and highlight personal message then click)

It helped me to read your deep, heartfelt, honest analysis of your current situation. You are in reality, howbeit ever so unkind. One person should not have to endure so many painful insults. My mom has lost two home, suffered from many insults and lost one son at 16 (motorcycle accident). She's a tough old bird. Very precious to us. Her strength is monumental too.

Originally Posted by prairiemary

I have been at NT for a month or so now, and I am soo happy that somehow I found this amazing place! I am still learning about computers, and still learning how to use threads, post,etc., I have most likely made alot of mistakes on here, but so far, I have not been told that I have done anything wrong! I have had many challenges in my life, I had really severe epilepsy as a child, I was physically and emotionally abused at home,became a teenage mom to a beautiful baby girl,raped,beaten,divorced,remarried,miscarried,ha d to start all over after we lost the farm,my house burned down(lost precious items),got severe Guillian-Barre syndrome 13 years ago,left with severe pain from nerve damage,lost a daughter to cancer 2002,a second accident left one limb paralysed,a bad fall last july with another concussion. This seems like alot, I guess that it is, but I am a very strong woman,and keep bouncing back, somehow.I have written a book, but that is where it ended, as I have NO IDEA what to do next, to try to get it published! Yes, I talk alot, I get teased about my lengthy emails,but emailing is my outlet, as I tend to keep alot deep inside, yet with emails, I let alot of it out. I am always available to listen, and help if I feel like I can. I live way out in the country, with a husband who wishes he had the guts to leave me-but says people would think badly of him if he left a disabled wife. No money for divorce, too move out, start over. I am unable to work, so was really counting on my book for a future income, but that does not look like it will happen, so instead,I live in sadness. See how long this is!? I guess I better end it! Thanks for listening to me, would love to hear from you! Oh,yes, my life does get busy with my 3 small dogs, they need me and give me back so much love!

[Twinkletoes]

Awwww, (((prairiemary))), what a mountain of obstacles you've had to climb.

With all the experiences you've endured, would you be able to volunteer to help others? Or would that just make you sadder?

Glad you found us. I'm sure many here will benefit from your perspective on life.

Maybe you could share the first few pages of your book on a post?

Be well, my friend.

[azoyizes]

Hi prariemary, and welcome to NeuroTalk!

You are an amazing woman to have gone through so much. I'm so sorry for all of your pain and losses. I'd say you have steel in you, and a lot of gumption!

[prairiemary]

Originally Posted by Twinkletoes

Awwww, (((prairiemary))), what a mountain of obstacles you've had to climb.

With all the experiences you've endured, would you be able to volunteer to help others? Or would that just make you sadder?

Glad you found us. I'm sure many here will benefit from your perspective on life.

Maybe you could share the first few pages of your book on a post?

Be well, my friend.

Wow-me helping someone!? I would be SO honored to be asked to help anyone and everyone!! It would make me feel so useful, so alive, so needed! Yes, I would LOVE to help anyone, and more than willing to just shut-up and listen!Thanks, you have just made my day alot brighter!

[FranksAngel]

welcome to neurotalk ... there are lots of friendly and supportive people here... i see you have been given a good starting point so jump right in and start posting ... wishing you the best with your book