when we get so bad that we can't hold it together on our own? do we just hole up in an apt., until the authorities are called to evict us? Where do they put us? a hospital would only take whatever my family of three children will get from my estate, so PS "punishes" not only us, but our families too. I need help , like so many of the "old timers" around here. Life sucks and then you die, but what kind of diseases make one suffer for decades.? Many. I beat depression, because i know that so many others have lives even worse than mine, but c'mon, i mean PD just takes and takes, and we are just sitting by watching ourselves fall apart. it is not fair that we don't get a few years of life after dx and then pass away quietly in the night. I hate going to bed and i hate waking up, and i hate this damn disease, and i am not a hateful person. If i didn't have kids i would drink drano if that's all i had to off myself. I am bereft of emotion anymore, sick of being sick , and angry at my creator for the lengthy suffering that this disease "forces" upon us. We don't need another 100 million that just gets "wasted" on "research" by people whose power to help us is zip; what we need is a centralized "hospital to go to die. cs