Originally Posted by K.Ibsen

My 30-year passion for writing computer software, for applying logic, for solving problems, for learning new technologies--they're all gone. I've lost most of my desire to acquire or keep material things. I'm willing to give things of value away to others. Material things just seem to clutter and complicate my life. I can't keep track of it all.

It could be depression or apathy. My psychologist says I'm depressed. It's true my energy levels are low. I started bupropion more than a month ago, and it gives me more energy and ability to concentrate. But I have not regained the passions for things that were a major part of my life for so many years.

I feel old and useless. The young programmers these days are so much quicker and learn so much faster. I'd like to retire from my current work and may have to, because the young programmers and massive technology changes are a reality, not a manifestation of any sort of depression. I'm not in a position to retire, and my disability insurance denied my claim. Theoretically, I can still work. But practically speaking, my best days are definitely behind me. This would be a problem even without PD. The PD just makes everything so much more difficult. How does one change careers at the age of 56 with PD? I don't know the answer to that one. For now, I'm just hanging on. Every month I work is another payment into my retirement fund. I really don't like feeling so ineffective while I'm on the job, however.

Originally Posted by vertigo

You have great humor, depression without the sadness, it must be something special. I am almost smiling. Think you are right about getting out of the chair ,start moving in the fresh air, thank you- -.
I wrote about my crazy shopping period, now I see :1 $ is 5kr, - it is the Euro. that is 8 kr. So , I spent 4000 $ on this "****".
John: I tried Beethoven 5 symphony , feeling better !

Annelise