I agree.. and I'd even like to add my two cents. Knowing where my PN came from didn't make things any better. It didn't help me to get better treatment or control the pain. All it did is make me want to go back and change the way things happened, which is not an option for any of us. Knowing where it came from makes me feel guilty -every minute of every hour of every day- because I could have prevented it all. Yet, at the same time, I couldn't have stopped it. I know that doesn't make a whole lot of sense to anyone who doesn't know the whole story.. but I would be much better off if I didn't know where it came from. It is the knowing that causes me so much pain every day. I know that isn't always the case... but it is my situation.