HI Everyone,
I think I just need to vent. I will say I am sorry in advance. My pain is usually about a 7. I think I do pretty good tolerating that. I still am working full time. We all know how that is put the smille on be pleasant and don't let anyone know. After all pain is invisible.
For about the last 6 days my pain has shot up to a 10. I started taking Lamictal 2 weeks ago and started taking B12 about a week ago. I looked up Lamictal and the side effects say joint pain. I definitely do not think it could be the B12. This is definitely my neuropathy not joint.

I finally statyed home from work on Monday but have been in ever since.
I just want to scream. I am so tired of just putting on my smile and pretending nothing is wrong. Don't want anyone in work thinking this might effect my working ability. I really need my job.

I am actually afraid if I focus on my pain I am going to go crazy. It is becoming too much to bear. I try to not let my children know to much. Don't want them to think they have a weak mother or a mother that would give in and quit working. Ihave always been the strong one in our family.

My husband gets the blunt of how I feel. The man is a godsend most of the time but I caught him with tears in his eyes the other day when I told him how I felt. I imagine he feels helpless. Can't fix this one.

I do see a therapist. He tells me he can't believe how good I do with all this.

I feel like I am going to crash and burn soon. I just can't believe the person I use to be has gone away ( use to be very active)

I don't mean to sound so down. I know I will come back around. I am just so tired.

Thanks for letting me vent as I sit in my office with tears in my eyes.

It is just great to have a place to vent and people who understand.