I am so angry today. I have been so much in pain the past couple of weeks I can't even visit these pages. Today is a little better. It is the time of year when I first "got" this condition - Ganglioneuritis. Today the sun is shining and i want to go garden. Instead I am sitting crying and raging. I am in so much pain this time of year because one of my "inflamers" is allergys so the end of february starts my misery time. And I don't even have ANY symptoms right now! But I am exhausted and my arms feel the worst they can feel. The med s Itake make me so dull-witted I can't read a book and we don't have tv so all I can think about is how much I wantto so something - ANYTHING! I am so angry about my condition. I thought I was getting on towards accepting it - but today i feel like I am back at ground zero.

I go in on Wednesday day to start a series of three weekly Ketamine SHOTS. That will help temporarily. But could someone please help me force my dr.s to figure how to make this go away. I can't do this... I feel like I am loosing my mind. I need to go in there non-emotional and educated on the right test. In the past, things have show that I test a little high for some allergy and rheumatology test but I am not sure which ones. When I saw the specialists in those departments they where not concerned. BUT - of course by the time I saw them it was the time of year that my pain level was lower either later summer or autumn.

What can I do now to force the issue to get things addressed now. And have the correct tests done now. What tests do I have done? I know I have had tests before - but at the wrong time of year I think - does it make a difference?