2500 days & hanging in there!



Two months (55 days) to 7 years.


20°C and 14 hours of full sun today to celebrate. :)

That is excellent Wide-O!

I hope that you enjoy the nice weather :).

Woohoo!! You are closing in on me...I'm starting to get worried!

The only way I can come closer is if you kick the bucket so to speak, so I prefer to keep a nice 300 day distance between us, thank you very much. ;)


I was just talking to the guy who inspired me most to go to rehab. He's celebrating 25 years this year. That's some serious time...

There was a day when 1 hour sober was so far away, there was a day when 1 day sober was so far away and there was a day when 1 month sober was so far away. Then 1 year happened. Now we are downward slope to the TEN year mark.

I never thought I would EVER be this deep into that thing called "sobriety" but here it is in all its glory.

I know exactly what you mean.


I remember the crippling fear of the first days. Is it always going to be this hard? Do I have to bite my nails and grind my teeth every waking second? Live with the fear of failing myself and others? Is that even humanly possible?



At the same time there was this resolve - I wish I could tap into that more, but I don't know how to summon it, or where it came from. It was just there.



And then suddenly you are in year 2 or 7 or 10 or 25... and today is nowhere near as hard as those first few. It is, in fact not hard at all, it's glorious indeed.



Unlike some other people. Today exactly a year ago a great musician died, in his 20ties. Addiction played a huge role in that, perhaps the primary one.


Why wasn't he able to tap into that resolve? Or something else, hope, faith, whatever. He knew the same guy that inspired me, I'm sure they talked about it, I'm sure he was offered help. Why couldn't he back away from the edge? I think we may never know. Unless science finds that switch?

Hello all. I have just found this three in the last week or so and have read all of your posts (ell almost all but will be going back to finish them) and wanted to say thank you and congratulations on amazing strength and courage and a job well done!

I do not know if I have neuropathy but suspect I may. I have Reynauds syndrome which was very recently diagnosed and am very susceptible to cold. Lately my middle and ring finger have been somewhat locking at night and I have to work it out when waking up. Additionally I have been feeling a tad bit dizzy lately at various times or weakness in legs just out of the blue when out for lunch at work or standing outdoors.

I know I have to stop drinking as my family life I realize now is being affected in my. Of being thoughtful enough. My wife does not know I drink as she has too much on her plate as it is. I recently had labs done and all was normal except for my liver enzymes were slightly high and I have been diagnosed with fatty liver previously. I am nervous even writing this as we speak however wanted to share to see if it gave me even a tiny kick in the rear end to get doing the right things. I’ve been listening to a lot of audiobooks on mindfulness and techniques for not feeling the need to bow down to your cravings as they are just thoughts and nothing more and we always have thoughts come and go so the craving too shall pass and pay it no mind. I feel like it’s helping me think of drinking in a different light and I am almost ready to take that plunge. I also however am terrified I am too late and i have already guaranteed that my sweet seven year old son will have to know a life without his dad who he loves so much and also experience going through his dad dying at such a young age.

Sorry for long rants but everyone seems so supportive and open here it’s very admirable and comforting. My questionnaire basically does this sound like neuropathy to you all, and also - have any of you had bad liver results or cirrhosis or liver scared in general, or does the neuropathy seem to come before the onset of cirrhosis?

Thanks for listening and for sharing all of your valuable information! Keep up the great work to you all!

Welcome srdub :).

Please keep talking here. Nobody will ever judge you but we will all do our best to support you.

:hug:

Yes, welcome!

Whether it be via meetings, cold turkey, rehab or whatnot; we will be here when you need to get it all out.

Good luck!

Thanks very much to you both!