I have been in therapy for 5 years, but it seems anytime certain family members call me, all of this crap comes back to mind. I even have severe nightmares about it. Panic attacks come and go, but to this day I don't know if therapy is helping.

I would like to try biofeedback to see if it helps. Does anyone have experience with this? What is it like? Did it work for you?

Also, confronting the issues head on, the dr. said I may need to sit with the family members, each at different times, and explain to them how they hurt me in the past and how that is affecting me now. I think I can do that, but I am afraid they will just think that I am being a big cry-baby (terms they would use).
What to do, what to do?

M

M, you do understand once you have PTSD it is a permanent part of your life? PTSD doesn't have to be as extreme as in the begining but you can have residual PTSD symptoms.

I chose not to confront. I knew from past and present what would happen - nothing would be resolved just more anger, sadness, frustration and hurt on my part. I chose to walk away.

There are also some who had a hand in my life that I am unable to confront - I have no knowledge were they are or if they are still alive. As for the person who initially triggered the PTSD - what goes around comes around.

For me, the PTSD is no longer about everyone who was involved it's about finding my own way to inner peace. My memories and feelings are mine and mine alone, they are part of me and always will be but I will not allow those memories to take over.

What I have experienced has made me who I am - someone I am quite proud of.

I hope you find something that will give you the inner peace I think you are desperately trying to find.

Thank you Snoopy. Now that I have had a few days to think about it, my husband and I decided that I should write letters to these ones, but not mail them. He will take them from the house and "do what he wants with them". My guess he is going to throw them away...lol. That way I have said what I need to say w/o a response from them.

You are exactly right. I need to find peace with in myself, in order to feel good about who I am. I am always so hard on myself. Since I can't work and I feel so crappy because of depression, CFS/Fibro, I feel I am a horrible wife and mother. However my son and husband are the GREATEST. They really are. They help cook, clean, do laundry, keep up with the dog and anything else I ask them to do. To beat all, my son is 14yrs old. It is hard to get any teenager to clean their room, let alone to help out around the house. He is very kind and considerate and I don't think there is one day that he doesn't tell me he loves me.

I am definitely thankful for their support. I think that is my inner peace.

I came across your post when searching for information on pseudo seizures or non-epileptic seizures for people with celiac disease or gluten sensitivity. It's underdiagnosed for the folks that present with atypical symptoms and with all of the possible symptoms it is even overlooked when intestinal symptoms are present. I have a twin sister who was also diagnosed. She suffered from panic attacks, depression, ADD... all associated with her celiac disease. I also have an aunt that suffered from non-epileptic seizures and was told she was crazy for years... also can be part of celiacs. Not to get on my soap box... sorry.

Anyway. Just thought I'd ask and put it on your radar in case. I was misdiagnosed for 13 years with everything under the sun. I have the added pleasure of being obese, which is completely against the norm for the classic presentation of celiacs. I will send some good thoughts your way no matter what. I hope everything works out for you.
Take care!