I'm sending (((Hugs))) your way. I'm hoping that you feel a bit better each day. BF

I do not understand much of what is going on in your thread but

I find your entries compelling and most important,

very brave. The process you are working through must be very difficult and the way you face your emotions/body reactions can only be admired from me

who is looking from the outside, knowing nothing other than how you are nothing short of amazing, IMHO

Hi Aarcyn BJ is very brave. She has been through some difficult things. I'm sure that she will appreciate what you've said to her when she reads this.

I think that she is in New York with her church tonight. Thanks for what you've said. BF

it sounds like you have a really good therapist - that's great it always seems hard to process the memories but in the long run i think thats the only way to get them out into the open and deal with them - ive only had EMDR once my T didnt want to do it again because I got a migraine - but i think it works - take care - I wish you well P7 and as I read in a book one time - all you have to do is hold on - so just hold on you can do this

Thank you for the encouraging words. EMDR is a lot of work, emotionally and physically.

I've been triggered and triggered these past few weeks. I have multiple traumas stemming from childhood to this past year and complex grief. I didn’t know when I started the treatment that it is not recommended for someone with numerous traumas. But my regular tdoc said this EMDR therapist is highly skilled and referred her. The first week or so after each session I keep seeing these horrid "things” and the nightmares are unending". When I do fall asleep I wake up within hours from them. My traumas (not all but way more than I could handle) flash like a picture book through my mind. I would have my eyes open and the whole room would be flashing as if a bulb was going off. Since then I have noticed every time I get triggered, I have this weird "thing" happen to me. It is not a flashback. It is like the EMDR is burned into my brain and it won't stop. It's painful and gives me migraines and my body shuts down, not to mention the horrid anxiety this event causes. I have no idea if this will ever go away at the moment but I have to keep trying and will have another one on Friday.

There seems to be an element when thinking about the trauma where you have to fully let go like entering a dream state by choice almost letting go of reality, by choice entering a state of recollection. I’m really having a hard time letting go.

The person giving EMDR unfortunately can't control your mind, nor do they know what is going to popup from within it so the sessions can get quite intense and you actually feel physical pain.

No Friend, I'm going to the Big Apple on Thursday

I miss you. Are you OK? BF

I think ive had the picture book thing happen - its like pictures flash before your eyes too fast to see properly - I had EMDR this week and half way through had to stop because I had balled up my fists and had the word protect shouting in my mind - we were talking about letting go of my hypervigilence - which it looks like im not ready to let go (still think i need it to stop what happened happening again ) - so yes i think a lot of the processing happens on a subconscious level after the session

I found myself being alternately sad, then exhauseted over the next two days - but i think in the long run it helps - hang in there P7
p.s., my cats are my safe subject to bring me back - cats rule!

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This may be a little late but I had 'extreme' results with EMDR too but had better success with another therapy, related in a way, that helped me, OEI. It's at: oneeyeintegration.com. I've been doing it for 8 years for PTSD as well as some other issues.

It is a more gentle approach but very effective. Hope this helps. I think EMDR has the right idea and is good for some but some of us OEI works the same but more gentle.

I know that therapy usually gets more intense before it gets better but this therapy helps to keep the process going forward but with a more gentle way.

I also think the end of the session for me is very important! I do a 'quiet time' for about 20 minutes of just resting and relaxing with t there. It is essenial!

I hope this isn't too late.

Happy!

Im new to this site, and its g8 to find it. I live in NZ.

I was reading your posting brokenfriend of 2006 and its a long time ago..I was wondering what is happening in your life now? I have type 2 Chronic PTSD and hav just found a child psychotherapist who is ont he same wavelength. A woman by the name of Lenore Terr has written some good material on type 2 PTSD.

Are you still living int eh country brokken hearted how do you feel?

All the best to you all as we all attempt to find our place in the world today after our individual life 'traumas[ and their resulting behaviours and thought patterns.
Love to all








QUOTE=Brokenfriend;433691]I miss you. Are you OK? BF[/QUOTE]

[QUOTE=Amii;468569]Im new to this site, and its g8 to find it. I live in NZ.

I was reading your posting brokenfriend of 2006 and its a long time ago..I was wondering what is happening in your life now? I have type 2 Chronic PTSD and hav just found a child psychotherapist who is ont he same wavelength. A woman by the name of Lenore Terr has written some good material on type 2 PTSD.

Are you still living int eh country brokken hearted how do you feel?

All the best to you all as we all attempt to find our place in the world today after our individual life 'traumas[ and their resulting behaviours and thought patterns.
Love to all

Amii I'm hanging in there. I'm doing a little better,but I've got a long way to go. I've been in therapy,and on medicine for years.

I hope that you are doing a bit better. I live on the East Coast of America. I live deep in a rural area away from major cities. There's really no where for me to go unless I drive 60 miles away to one city,and then 70 miles to another.

Thank you for your message. The Bipolar forum is very popular. That's where I go daily,and people post daily there. They are a very caring group of people. I hope that you find the support that you need here on Neurotalk. Welcome to Neurotalk Amii.

I'm so sorry that you are suffering in these ways. It's hard for people to understand,and I've been through more suffering in life because of people's misunderstanding. Brokenfriend