Work and Sleep part 2
 

Hi,

My tdoc and I had a phone session today-- last time we talked was in late July / early August.
I gave her updates about hubby and work and such.

She thinks I am handling things well. She always points out in what ways I seem to be making things work for me. Then she makes some suggestions about how to do more of what is helping me.

I think that the 300 mgs of Gabapentin made her think I am O.K. I might have been on a much lower dose when I saw her last.
M

are you not ok? how do you feel being on the 300mg?
bizi

Took the day off due to the Hurricane off our shore
 

Hi,


We are having 35 mph wind gusts. The ground is soaked. It has been raining since Wednesday.
I took the day off today because I do not feel like dealing with the wind and rain.

Also, I need a break from my boss.


M

Mari

Good idea. I am on vacation, but making calls to my parents that
call. Because I couldn't change my phone message.

But that is fine. I've added two or three new cc's to my schedule.

Heehee, and added 4 or 5 new clients while on vacation.

Wow, what a way to be on vacation.


Donna:hug::grouphug:

Hi Mari, hope tomorrow is better weather, inside and out.

We have better weather now. The full moon is beautiful through the clouds. Tonight is cool -- have to wear long sleeves to work Monday.


M

really bad day today at work

I am sorry that you had a bad day at work...can hubby give you many hugs and maybe a back rub if you like those?
(((((((HUGS))))))))
bizi

hey there...
 

((((( :heartthrob: Mari :heartthrob: )))))

I wish you a much better tomorrow. Way too much stress in your life lately between presentations and travel and hurricanes and bad days at work. I hope this little daisy can bring you a smile for a moment or two.

http://3.bp.blogspot.com/-L4VDQhOMvt...25283%2529.jpg

I would like to share that I saw the moon last night too, from when it rose near the horizon all fat and yellow and beautiful to when it got high up in the sky, smaller but bright with its silvery light. I was sad when we had to shut the blinds due to the cold, but I was glad to have caught the full show this time at least.

Anyway, I will be keeping you in my thoughts and sending good energy. :circlelove: Be well.

~ waves ~

yoga heals
 

Thank you, People,

I made it to school on time, drank lemon balm tea during the day, and took extra klonopin. I practiced smiling a lot in case it would spread to the people I had to deal with.

I needed to score some points with my boss after a bad meeting on Tuesday so on Wednesday I asked her if she could come to one of my classes and do something breath work with my students (she has been doing yoga forever and sometimes teaches classes here and there).

She "thanked" me for "inviting" her.
She spent a half an hour teaching them three breaths, asked them to briefly write about how they feel their power, spoke a little about yoga, and took a question or two.
Then I let the class go a few minutes early and texted her a "thank you."

I feel better now about the relationship she and I have. She clearly was happy that I asked her to share her yoga gift.

M

Dear Mari

That is wonderful! You had a truly inspired idea there! :) ... and you really hit the bullseye with it! :)

Not least, that lesson will directly benefit your students with all-school related stress if they apply it, and in even broader contexts. Now you have me thinking, wow, if only relaxation/breathing techniques were more often made part of the curricula...

Anyway I am really happy that you feel better now in your relationship with your boss. A job no matter how beloved can become very stressful and burdensome when that relationship is strained.

Well done and keep up the good work. ;)http://neurotalk.psychcentral.com/im.../thumbs_up.gif

:hug::hug:

~ waves ~

I love the way you handled this.

Good job Mari.

Donna:grouphug::hug:

I woke up too early.
 

I set my alarm!!!!! Last night when I was messing around with the clocks, I set my alarm even though it is still the weekend and I might have slept in a little.

What is wrong with me? How does a person mess up a time change??


M

I think you were just being prepared.

Donna:grouphug::hug:

maybe you can take a nap?
we went to bed later last night but got up earlier than normal...back bothers me when I stay in bed too long.
sorry you got less sleep.
bizi

Hi,

I have a lot of work to do Tuesday at home.
I will have the work completed at 7:00 p.m. so I can watch the election results.

With luck and harmony, the night is resolved happily.

M

Sleepy
 

I have been listening to sad music.

I am too tired to brush my teeth and go to bed.

M

Yes
bobby

Ohio goes blue!
 

Celebration now that Ohio has been called Blue.

Tears of joy for the country.
http://www.easyfreesmileys.com/smile...mileys-770.gif

M

So agree.

Donna:grouphug::hug:


They just said, on my tv that its a re-elected

Obama. Hope it sticks.

Donna

http://i372.photobucket.com/albums/o...39685354_n.jpg

Hi,

Well, it is not Friday yet. I still have to go to bed and get up. Still, it feels like it COULD be Friday.

M

Love it! Sunday will be my Friday so ill reserve my excitement until then.

work and sleep
 

I never am sure what day it is :hug:

Florida is still counting votes. Palm Beach County is not done yet.
M

would quit work in one second if I had a chance
 

Mornings are hard. I missed not having bananas in the house so I made a milk shake of
~frozen peaches --- bad idea
~PB 2 (Powdered Peanut Butter)
~Flax seed
~almond milk
~chocolate powder

It helped wake me up.


Maybe I need new glasses. Lately I notice that print has gotten hard to read.

Hubby is around today because he does not have to work due to the holiday. He keeps talking to me and asking me stuff. He is high energy in the mornings but usually I do not have to see him.

M

Depressed the past two days.

Late tonight the depression seems to be less bad.
I do not know why one day and not another.

M

Me neither. It is what it is. It comes,and goes. I never know when this late night dread will come,or go. Or is it anxiety,and depression? The other night I just came to a conclusion at about 4:30,or 5:00 AM that I was scared between sleep,and being partly awake,and depressed.

It may be bio-chemical. It's something we inherited. It's probable in our DNA,but we can get better. :Scratch-Head:

Mari. I'm glad that you are less depressed this morning. I hope that you get some rest. I hope that through research,there is better medication around the corner. BF:hug::hug::hug:

mari
 

I'm glad that you are feeling less depressed today hope, that it continues have a realy grate day:hug:

Tired. Angry. Anxious. Agitated.
 

ANOTHER STUPID MEETING THURSDAY A.M. -- 10:00 a.m.

:mad: :hissyfit:

I am in a witchy mood. Feeling violent too.
I pray that I act somewhat normal at work and no one notices that I am about to jump out of my skin or cause a scene and hurt someone.

M

good luck at the meeting, you can always excuse yourself if you need to...that is an option.
bizi hoping that you got some sleep last night.

Bizi,

I have to go to this. The people in charge and the secretaries sending out multiple emails think that this is very important. -- even though I know it is bs.

Maybe I can sit in the back in case I get antsy/ anxious / annoyed / angry and step out and come back if I need to.

M

Hope you made it through your meeting and can relax now. Hope you sleep well tonight.

Thank you.
The meeting stunk. I walked out when one big jerk got up to start talking.

Then I jumped all over Work Buddy about something that only needed some quiet talking.

At 4:30 I announced I would not be at work Friday.
I will need a three day weekend before I am fit to be around people who pay my salary.

M

I am glad that you are taking friday off. maybe you can get some decent sleep over the weekend?????
bizi

I honestly do not know how I have held a job. :confused: :( :(

Hope you get to rest and decompress tomorrow. <3

Edited to add: I was trying to make a heart

butterfly there are graphics that you can use when you go to make a post and open up that reply box there are several options tot he right of the window happy sad, etc there is a "more" icon click it and it takes you to many more graphics enlarge the window and scroll down hearts are there you just have to find them...and I don't know why your <3 did not work?
bizi hope this helps.

edited to add that my <3 did not work either must be a face book function. Have a good day!

Hubby is wound up tight and I am jumpy
 

Hi,

I took off work hoping to have a quiet day and focus on what I need for sanity.

Hubby came home early from work uptight and weird and making me jumpy. I might as well have gone to work.

He and an insurance guy are climbing around in our attic right now. :mad:
I really needed to be left alone today.
I am so amazingly incredibly anxious.

Every time I hear something I want to jump.


M

I'm sorry Mari. Try again tomorrow. I hope that tomorrow is better. I had a telephone person crawling around under my house/apartment today. I heard thumping,and bumping around sounds. This get's on my nerves big time. I took a shower,and went to the supermarket. When I was in the shower I heard the thumping around. I hate that. It makes me very nervous. It makes me feel like yelling,"What in the %@##is going on down there. BF:eek::hug::hug::hug:

thinking of you & hoping you had a better day today