Being patient is SO hard to do...
 

Now it's the hard part, the long tedious waiting, I washed up all our non-essential kitchware and packed a storage tub full of cookware that we don't use daily and other plastic containers and such. It felt good to get the kitchen started since I have to clean it to a degree before we leave. I am so anxious to get this move over and done with. I packed away three garbage bags full of clothes and stuffed them behind the bean bag chairs in the walk in closet so I did a LOT today. :)

But also I am waiting to hear about this grant I applied for, called The Gift Of Freedom, check it out here:

http://www.aroomofherown.org/

Its a fifty thousand dollar grant over two years, and it's give to struggling women writers. I hope that my essays moved the judges and that they picked me. I wrote some of the best essays I've ever composed for this application package and I hope that it's enough that they will choose me to receive the grant so I could get a new car, pay off my wheelchair, get some dental implants, things like that. :)

SO I won't know until the middle of June before they announce the winner on their website. I am just wondering if they chose me and I've moved before they chose to inform me that they might be put off that we moved you know? I don't know, I am just worried because I put so MUCH effort into this process, it took me MONTHS to compose these essays, and if I am not the one they chose I plan on trying again in the next grant period, for 2009. :)

Not about to take NO for an answer on this one. ;) So any tips on how I can get through the waiting? Besides day dreaming about living in the new place? Jackie will be in summer school by the time they update the site naming the winner, they updated recently and have four finalists listed which my name was not among the four so I am greatly encouraged that I will have been picked because they almost picked a mother with two handicapped children and I think they will appreciate the disability awareness I focus so tightly on in my writings. :)

HELP! I don't know how to make this waiting period bearable, I know each day it's closer to knowing and to being in the new place, but I am so anxious it's just driving me batty! Any advice for me is appreciated. :)

Wow - you sure did get a lot accomplished, that's great!!!!!:)

I hope you win the contest......the only thing is to try and keep busy or get into a good book while waiting. I know easier said then done. I am not patient either. LOL

Wishing you the best of luck...........


Hugs, Nikko:hug:

Thanks Nikko! :D I appreciate the advice, I have "Still Me" the Christopher Reeves Memoir to read here and I have never gotten into it, so maybe tomorrow I wills start on it. Thanks again for the luck, I need it because this is one hard competition. :)

Pam,

I don't know what to tell you. I know how hard it is to wait for things to happen but perhaps telling yourself that wishing time away is just wishing your life away.

befuddled2

Pam,
Good luck on the grant!
You worked hard for it.
:Good-Luck:

M.

I know it's hard waiting Pam but time is so precious. You never know from one day to the next about the dreaded "time". So enjoy your time while you have it. Bottle it up and put it in your back pocket and next time you're pressed for time, pull it out and savor it. :D

You're right, I guess I should just enjoy what time we have left here in the old place. It's not much longer until we're starting the real packing. I have to get some boxes from Walmart and hopefully get them packed away in the final days of our being here. I think I will work on cleaning out the cabinets which I cleared out yesterday, not that we have many, this place is like living in a mousehole or something. Thanks for the replies everyone! I will work on enjoying the moment. :)

Its called hurry up and wait. Gotta love it!
Good luck!

Thanks Wendy! ;) :D I just got done cleaning out our Condiment drawer where all the ketchups and taco sauces are and it was a nasty job but I got the bad stuff thrown out and the good stuff packed into glad lock baggies so that's one more thing done and ready to go. I am still thinking I need more baggies so I am going to run off to the store and get some. ;) Hope you have a great day Wendy! :D

It won't be long now, you will be in your new place. I know how it is living among boxes and stuff. Yet, the more you get done the better you will feel.:trampoline:

One thing I have tried to do and think I am doing pretty well in, is live in the moment, otherwise I drive myself right up the wall with worry and other thoughts. I still have my days though.

Hang in there, your doing great!:Dancing-Chilli:

Nikko:hug:

EWWWWW! We have the upper shelf of our fridge door for that!:D

LOL!!! I don't know what the new fridge will look like, hopefully its a nice one. ;)

Thanks Nikko, & thank you Wendy, you both are awesome! :D I really appreciate the support. :D

No thank you!:D

Hehehehe, LOL! ;)

Goofy. That's me!

UGh, so today was a half day of school and it was his last day of school until June 11th. I don't know how we're going to get through this week and the move, wish me luck, I am so sweating it. I got some boxes and packing tape and hoping I can make it the rest of the month, part of what motivated this move is finances. I am so sick of living month to month you know? Limited income and all that goes with it. :(

Good news is we think we will definitely be able to save up money to get my car fixed. :)

:Dancing-Chilli: That is very good news Pamster!!!!
bizi

It is awesome news I know, I have had so much anxiety about the car, it's just got to get fixed since we don't think we can squeeze a car payment out of our budget it has to get fixed. I am still praying that I get that grant too, but I can't count on it, I might have to try again for the 2008-09 Gift of Freedom, and I will not give up because I know I can get my work published. It's going to happen, just a matter of when. :D

With all of your enthusiam and drive, I believe it WILL happen for you someday! As far as the packing and moving, that is a HUGE task, and I don't envy you that! Just take it a little at a time, don't over-exert yourself!

Jacquie, fingers crossed for ya'

Thanks Jacquie! I am sure it won't be easy, but then nothing worth having ever is easy right? :D I hope you're having a great Saturday! :D

Ugh I am stressing out because Mom was going to take us bed shopping and she had to cancel because she's sick, I need to get us two twins big time and I don't know when or how I will get that accomplished in time. I can't take Jackie in my car to go do this so I am somehow going to have to find them on my own locally and see about getting them delivered on the first. I have been sweating finding them for over a week now because none of the shops seem to have them, (we're getting pre-owned, a nice way of saying used) and I just feel like we're going to sleep on the floor if we don't get at least one bed. Stressing big time...:eek:

Do you have quick quater ads there?
or penny saver...any local classified ads that you could go to they may even be on line.
I am sorry thatyou are stressing about this...hang in there ...things will work out for you.
((((HUGS))))
bizi

That's a good idea bizi, I will have to see if I can pick one of those up when I go out tomorrow. I had to take 1/2 a lorazepam here a bit ago because it's just too much. I have hope, but still that demon of anxiety clings to me. It's better now then it was when I posted, but still. :p

Thanks for caring bizi. :hug:

I hate that anxiety monster....
((((HUGS))))
bizi

I know it's simply an awful feeling. I feel better this morning, but only because I had such a restful sleep. That CPAP machine really is helping with making me feel better both physically and emotionally. :D

Thanks for the hug bizi. :hug:

So today I went shopping and got a lot of organizing done. I went through clothes over the week and got a full black garbage bag full of clothes we no longer wear that have a lot of life left in them and I took them today to donate them along with some old toys Jackie doesn't want anymore to a local church where I go for clothes and other help occassionally. It's a nice feeling to give back you know? I also helped Jack walk out a heavy TV console to the dumpster, it wasn't easy but it's only a taste of what's to come, I know the moving will just be terrible and the heat here in Florida this time of year is simply awful.

Well it's going on day five and tonight we had chicken parmesean, it was delicious too! I hope that everyone has a awesome Memorial Day tomorrow, I think we'll be busy working on things for getting ready for the move. :D

Happy Memorial Day Pam. Moving can be stressful and adventuous at the same time. I'm glad you are getting better sleep now.

befuddled2

Thanks Barbara! I am sleeping so much better with the machine now it's like night and day. And the best part is I feel so much better, definitely not tired anymore like I used to be. It's going to be okay, I know it will but it's just scary right now thinking about how much work we've got. And so little time to get it done in. Today I am organzing clothes into garbage bags to lighten up the dressers and it should go okay. We're also cleaning the bathroom and kitchen today. :)